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2008-02-23T22:54:00.004+08:00

i led a life full of regrets, it was so sad. I hope no one will be like me. The feeling of being filled with regrets is really so hurtful, so tiring. Many things happened today, or rather this week. It makes me wonder, abt my life. Therefore ever since 30/12/07 my baptism day, I decided to not live a life of regrets.

i missed so many things in my life, i did so many uneccessary things in my life, i lost so many things in my life. This feeling sucks. Just by saying this is no use. i have to work towards a more fulfilling life. =/

i really hope no one will be like me, the feeling of regret is so hurtful. CHERISH every or rather any one you know, CHERISH those people around you. Life is so unpredictable, you'll never know if I will die tomorrow? or right after i finish this post maybe something will happen to me? You'll never know. Learn to cherish the people you have and especially those that love you or you love. Cherish them! Do NOT regret! =/

i miss you all so. =/

2008-02-08T23:34:00.000+08:00

happy chinese new year everyone!

this is wat tessa wan me to write: 'I LOVE TESSA AND I LOVE BAK KWA' HAHA.

alright so half is true, i love tessa but i cannot love bak kwa ITS FATTENING YOU KNOW! >:(

but its evil... hahah, i love the hei bi hiam too! spicy and nice. but have to refrain no matter wat!

and i seriously hate hw, its like BAHH! ITS HOLS! i studied bio today =/ photosynthesis man, thanks to my lazy bones[sleeping in class like a big fat pig]. gosh man.

anws. i can feel the cny mood, not really into it just like the ang baos and gatherings and see all my cousins tgt, this time both my elder cousins brought their girlfriends! WOOHOO! yay! i hope to eat wedding dinner and carry little nieces and nephews soon! haha. im even more despo then my granny, oh wells. i love kids =D

k. and im a super photoshop idiot alright. have been stucked since dunno when. I GIVE UP! i think i will go read the photoshop guide for dummies soon =/ when i got the time, oh wells.

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR EVERYBODY ^^

2008-01-23T23:52:00.000+08:00

oh gosh! too many things happening too little time to think =(

it have been a really long time since i last post, days aint going well AT ALL. though im trying to keep my spirits very high, its not NOT working. seriously, feeling very down now. guess its just a 'stacked' up feeling. it have been very long since i was down/emo/ wateva its called.

went to visit xjls the on monday, argh, its so depressing. i was trying not to tear but it didnt work. once i see her and more tears just start rolling down non-stop =/ argh. im incorrigible. i can't bear for her to leave. I really think that ONE SHOULD NEVER TAKE SOMEONE FOR GRANTED.pleaseplease remember this. i feel so much guilt and sadness all over me. and all i could do is pray. argh =/

this friday i think, some frens and i will start a prayer group, hopefully it suceed. one of my friends were saying that many christians in my sch is like submarines christian, not knonwn. I think this helps me to reflect in a way. Am I a submarine christian? hiding? if i am i think i should stand out now and be a christian that is not hiding no more.

Recently i had devoutions and i got quuite a few of thoughts. But they are too much to type here. Really think that devoutions could help one alot in their spiritual growth and they can improve their relationship with God.

gahh. k. think i should go now, i will not be blogging very often btw, so don mind the 'coldness' in both tag and the blogblog. yupyup.

keep xjls in prayers please!

2008-01-09T20:01:00.000+08:00

GAHH!! IM DAMN STRESSED ALRIGHT! I KNOW IM NOT SUPPOSED TO BE HERE BUT YEAH! IM DAMN STRESSED I HATE BAND LIKE SERIOUS! AND I REALLY AM GONNA COLLAPSE SOON! I CANT STAND IT! I HOPE I CAN DIE INSTEAD OF THE WORLD ENDING CAUSE I WILL NOT BE SELFISH! SO MANY THINGS TO HANDLE WITH AND GAHHHHHHHHHHHHH! 5 TESTS NEXT WEEK WHEN ITS ONLY THE 3RD WEEK! LIKE HELLO??? OMG!! >:( IM STRESSED AND RATHER DEPRESSED AS IN SERIOUS DEPRESSED >:(

God can you hear me? =/

2008-01-01T16:41:00.000+08:00

YAY! ITS A NEW YEAR! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! <33 WELCOME 2008! WOOTS!
yesh, praise the Lord for he have guided me through 2007! and I hope that I will pursue God's words even more this year.

alright, some updates, I'VE BAPTISED! =D yesh, that day was a real special day for me! gosh, the water sure is cold! and i even pose there for super long -.- oh wells, hehe. it was a 30th dec! i baptised. i said my testimony too! was oh so scary! cause apparently there were ALOT of photos there man! x_x but Thank God! i didnt had very bad stage fright =D so MARIETTA YONG ANNICE MICHELLE LIM CAME! =DD yay! so happy to see them ah! thank you so much for coming! but, aww.. dearest shan wasn't there, jingwen also hah.. but its ok! gosh, i definitely feel quite different after being baptised, but i don't know how to describe =/ oh wells. its a good thing! some of the adults that shake my hand were like saying they could reallly see the change in me =D to me, it is really encouraging. hah.

31st! i spent breakfast eating curry+bread, lunch eating curry+ bread! gosh, was so err.. tiring eating curry+bread! lols. then my family went for shou shui! CHURCH EVENT! was fun! =DD we get to bbq and then sis jas caleb esther and me went to pasir ris park to play! ohya we were at a bungalow, at pasir ris park. haha, sweet memories there man. oh wells. aft we went back, we rested for a while, then me jas and samuel started going ki siao! ahah! we got our XIAO XIN THEME SONG MAN! thanks to........... ME =D then we had our mini-concert thingy. haha. was damn high lah! aww. i love jas and sam <33 anws, then we had our worship and also sharring and prayer session! then at 11:58 we started singing 'God is so GOOD!' yup till 11:59:55 then we COUNT DOWN!! was really meaningful!! =D

by the time i reached home, its about 2+ then i started recording all the things i did the first time this year! the first time i shitted and urine this year is at 1/1/08, 2:04am! first food i ate is curry+bread(my remainings of lunch and breakfast)! first time i finish bathing in this year is at 3.00am sharp! first time i got electric shock by the plug cause i was trying to dry my hair using the hair dryer but i was too lazy to off the switch is at 3: 07am! hahaha. all my first times of this year! =D

never forget wat God did last year or in any year! yup, may God bless every one of you! Glory to the God for he is so GOOD! HAPPY NEW YEAR! =D

2007-12-26T23:32:00.000+08:00

alright. im back to blog. MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! i think very little people will know this current blog. erps. apparently i decided to change the url, hopefully the person who likes stars (***) will not know this blog ya? oh wells.. think next yr i will use com much lesser, gonna pia when jan begins ya.. oh wells. take care everyone!! <33

2007-12-22T22:15:00.000+08:00

For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart." 1 Samuel 16:7

Christmas is coming, and i thought all should know the real meaning of Christmas.

I was away from sgp, went hokkaido and shanghai then came back and went for camp the next day. Many things happened, guess I shan't say much. Not in a good mood now, but I know I will be better. Do pray for me, if you know what is happening. thank you.

oh, i really wanna thank xj and my parents for helping me getting through this thing.

2007-12-11T13:06:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO~ guess this will be the last time I'll be blogging before i fly off to japan =D

haha. finally can get out of singapore! i shld be excited. lol. but not really though =/ mum is making a big fuss out of many things for now which seriously irritates me, so she said we will not go to snow countries anymore =/ oh wells. currently i lost my voice, so do pray for me. My asthma is back too so im a bit worried yup. Hope nth will go wrong there. will be flying off at 1am. reaching the airport at abt 11pm so ya. will be coming back on the 18th ya =D lols. will definitely get some good stuffs back from jap/shanghai ya! so shall go and finish packing my dearest luggage now~ ^_^

BYE ALL! TAKE CARE AND GOD BLESS YOU!

2007-12-08T22:36:00.000+08:00

SATURDAY!! =D

ok. im in a relatively good mood. but my throat is killing me, so is my ear =/ inner-ear infection again. so please pardon me for my poor hearing, and if you are gonna talk to me, please please please speak louder k? cause I doubt I gonna hear you. HAH. and i think my asthma is back =/ OMG. and in like 3 or 4 days time im flying off!! ahhh!! >:( alright. so morning i did housework! so guai of me! hehe. then afternoon, my 2 aunts and 2 cousins brought me for lunch! IT WAS DAMN GOOD!! at tomo, i dunno how to spell. it is jap food. its damn ex though =/ my aunts treat! aww. love them LOADS! <33 alright. i had unagi, and loads of other stuffs.

anws. in the end i was DAMN LATE for section outing and im really sorry =/ but im relatively 'early'? cuz i cabbed! was damn ex =/ mum paid me for the housework and i just spent it on the stupid cab far >:( irritating. ohwells. we cycled! at first i cycled the single, until zhuer and ruijun fell down! omg lah. so in the end i cycled the doubles, me at the front! =D anws. yesh. and dearest ruijun scream every time and seriously, even if i have my infection its like deafening!! omg!! but she's really bimbo la hor~ hahah. anws. at first only 3 of us, then the reds joined!! jingwen and jiaying! =D yup! really nice of them to join us! hah. then we went to return our bikes, but jingwen cycled the single i had the doubles again. with jiaying this time, OH YA! to think of it!! both ruijun and jiaying twisted my ass like MAD LAH! jiaying is like extreme! the sit thingy is like totally cannot sit type lah! hahaha. but was damn funny! k. then we walked/took bus to parkway parade, and had dinner in mos! i had STRAWBERRIES <33333 my love! haha. ohoh. then zhang di joined! LOL. hey, she is SUPER cat high and macs fan man!! haha. but she's funny lah, always laughing at her own jokes. yup. and we looked superr striking!! ORANGE<33 but er.. like madarin orange? o.O ohwells. so i took bus and wanted to go church for chimes =/ but abit late? so i had to drop off half way and let my parents fetch, and apparently they are SUPER pissed with me =/ oh wells. im really sorry for not going church =/ tmr is our very first zhi yuan hui!! (zhi yuan is smth like ex-com)i wonder wats gonna happen. oh wells and there is choir singing in service tmr! =D kk. shall go now.

3 more DAYS!!!

2007-12-08T00:25:00.000+08:00

yeah! im back online! haha. this week have been cute croool.. haha. alright. I CUT MY HAIR!! on wed, probably most slack day. anws. i wanna talk abt the days in the childcare centre!!

FIRST DAY!
woo.. i was so scared and anxious, wonder wat kind of kids, how many im facing. so, i kept praying like mad. hahah. kiasu lah, so i woke up super early, like 7.30am. and outta my house at 8.45!! then i went to the BUKIT ARANG(a church) the childcare(CC) is at the 4th floor! anws. yesh. so 1st day, yahua laoshi intro me to the whole CC, like WOW? there is about 30 people! and all 30 pairs of eyes stared at me AT ONE GO! i cant take stares man! so i think i blushed abit?( I DO NOT BLUSH USUALLY K! so you can see how pro their stares was o.O) lol. yesyes. so first day the teachers there was auntie hua(ya hua laoshi - yhls) and auntie Dorothy! they are soooo nice! and the cleaner! they took care of me alot!! like very kind and all? hah. kk. so the first task for me is to teach the kids, if they got qns they can ask me. but yhls told me to coach Iszat first! k. short intro, he is a so called eurasian, father malay, mum singapore and he is K2! so my task is to teach him 1+1=2 or 7+3=10! its damn confusing for him k! and he damn difficult to teach la! the table had: Weasley(p3), Jonathan(p1), Darreyl(p1), and of course Iszat(K2). the kids have to finish 1 unit of their assessment books then they can play indoors, whatever they wanna play. yup. so i taught Iszat how to plus and identify numbers and stuffs, k. he is reeeeeeeeeeally cute ok! his eyes soooo big and shiny! hahaha. and he don hav alot of hair. but he is very cute!! =D and his new la, then aft i taught him, he went off to play with the other kids. then i had to deal with the veryVERY noisy Jonathan and Darreyl, actually they are not very wild, just TALKATIVE! gosh. and Jonathan took a total of 1hr and 45 mins to finish 2 pgs of p2 maths and 4 pgs of xi2zi4 omg lah! i was damn shock! oh half way yuehui(p1) joined in too! she's a very pleasant girl, very nice, and she hugged me damn hard today -.- shall explain tt later. anws. she is also VERY talkative ok! hahah. anws. aft Jonathan finish his work, clean his table, its abt time for lunch! so no play time for him. haha. at abt 11 all the kids have to gather and prepare for lunch, the basic rule is to gather early and keep quiet. no noise~! then yhls will say ONE! TWO! and at 2 they shld be totally shut and THREE! then all will sing (THANK YOU THANK YOU JESUS! THANK YOU THANK YOU JESUS! THANK YOU THANK YOU JESUS IN MY HEART A MEN!) yesh! i rmb that song! when i was super young i sang it! anws, yeah then they will sing it in cl the next day then alternate lah. then the most quiet table will get to eat first. blahblahblah. i only need to ask chili? tomato? onion? haha. then i will just give them wateva they wan bah. ohh then i ate lunch with the teachers and also some veryvery slow pokes( eg. yuehui). haha. yup. then they had a short playing time again, at abt 12+ they have to gather for activity! i helped them to put glue and stuffs, then also hurry them and tell the leaders to NOT make a fool. hahah. the small kids really cute man! but of course there are some other kids that are totally ALAMAK! like yirui(p1) oh gosh! he is very VERY mischeivous but his IQ quite high, he likes to disturb others but his really cute, in a nerd way, cause he wears specs. hoho. then there is Ziwei(p3) he is totally stubborn like ^%$&^%$(& yhls and auntie Dorothy they all were talking abt him today, gosh he is soooooo troublesome. and annoying! i totally BLEH him man. there is Kai Jie(p3) GOSH! he is like a gangstar!! damn rough always beat people and shout very loud! and Kai teng! his cousin, she's quite pretty but ya, very SPOILT! there is many others, hahah. so anws, aft they finish glueing and stuff, i help them wash the cups and brushes full of glue! then pack up etc, then its the end of my first day. hah. quite cool ya?!?!?!

wed was slack day, which is BAD! the kids went for outing so i didnt go, haha =D THURSDAY! my 2nd day! i was looking forward to it! but my lazy ass cant get up, so i ended up waking at 8.30 and went off at 8.50! haha. i reached at 8.55 though, oh wells. hah so yup. as usual, auntie hua will intro me again, and all the stares. BUT i didnt blush. hah. then i went off to teach Iszat, gosh im a lousy teacher. =/ he still cant get it that 1+1+5=7 he put 1+1+5=35!! OMG i almost vomit blood =/ alright. then i went off to see Jonathan, interesting kid. haha. his very nice! and adorable! ahha. anws. i coach him so he ended relatively fast on that day, then i went off to coach yirui! the specs guy 8) always smiling mischeivously. haha. oh! there were 4 teachers on that day! guess wat -.- one of them is auntie JESSIE! ITS DAMN WEIRD CALLING YOUR OWN NAME AUNTIE OK!!! and i almost -fainted. ok. dramatic. hah. anws. the teachers were Auntie hua, esther, joy and last but not least -.- jessie =/ haha. but auntie jessie is REALLY NICE! but she bo xia haha. no voice! poor thing =/ anws. so aft i finish coaching the kids, yuehui pulled me over to the couch and made me join her Jonathan and Eugene(p1) haha. they were talking abt I not stupid 2 the show. WALAO! -.- first day they told me 2nd day they told me and the very last day they told me too! OMG! lols. oh wells. then yuehui pulled me to the corner of the room, and told me more in detailed o.O hahah. she's so funny. she even laugh at her own joke! hahahahh. kk. then was lunch, and she wants me to sit with her -.- but i cant lah, cuz i had to serve: chili? tomato? onion? hahah. but she ate really slow! so in the end i still sat with her, as usual aft lunch they have time to play. this time, Jonathan Eugene and Yuehui didnt play tgt. so i was like o.O i went off asking them wat happened, then they were like i don fren him i don fren her and stuffs so i was like ok. -.- i was like that when i was young. omg. hah. and omg,walao,wth,stupid,sucker all are VERYVERYVERY bad words to them! so i didnt say all those words when i was there at all! hah. incase i get caught. eeks. oh! and they have this worm system! like if you can memorise the memory verse or be a good girl/boy then you will have worm and at the end of the month you can use them to collect attractive prizes, but i dunno wats that of course. hah. so as usual they had to gather at 12+ so i helped out, this time a bit diff, they had to complete their clock and do a calendar! cool ya? xD but some were very fast some were very slow. oh! before art and craft they had storytelling! was interesting!! was one of Jesus' story, example the good samaritan, but the story was abt the 10 girls holding the oil lamp and stuffs. yup! so a few things happened, Darreyl cried! cuz apparently, Auntie Esther scolded him and he was confused, i told him to wash his face and he seems to got stuck in it for damn long -.- so i told someone to get him out. so i squat down in order to reach his height and talked to him like asked him why he cry etc, then in the end. i made him smile! hahaha. so i felt super happy =D anws aft art n craft they can play. and OMG THE MOST UNEXPECTED FOR ME HAPPENED!!!! the Kaijie, very naughty boy, went to punch a small guy Derrick and the Derrick nose bled lah! i was totally stunned k! at that time i was helping yirui, hah. then the teachers were like kk, cloth etc. then they say they have to call both Kaijie and Derrick's parents then Kaijie went mad, he kept crying and pleading lah! then the yirui told me Kaijie is crocodile tears. hahahh. damn naughty lah! anws i was totally O.O so, aft all my work done i went off at 2+

LAST DAY! TODAY! as usual, woke up at 8.30 left at 8.50 etc. then as usual i went to coach Iszat, and as usual im a no good teacher cuz this time he took 2+5=10 =/ omg. haha. and 1+1+1+2+1=5 tian ah!! anws, he still managed to finish 1 pg and went off playing, for Jonathan, he did soooooooo much faster! he took half an hr to complete his work! but when i look arnd, everyone finished their work -.- oh wells. k. so i went off to play with him, haha. he brought his toy so i joined him playing, but i don really understand his game -.- and he kept saying Iszat is very rude cause Iszat is trying to play with him! haha. anws. kids are really interesting! so i spent the whole play time from 10 to 11+ talking and playing with Jonathan alone, of course the cleaning auntie got a shock and so did auntie hua, hahaha. but he is a really nice person to talk to, as in he do the talks of course. hah. damn adorable, then in the mids, the others joined too.. example yuehui and Iszat. abit. then as usual lunch etc. lol. aft lunch they had to do word search! so i went arnd to help the groups when they needed help. aft tt i help the small ones with their time budget paper. i helped felicia(K2)[she is forever crying and she always tells me she wants her mama] and i helped yuehui both at one goal, so when i helped felicia, yuehui will jump and jump! and she hugged me damn tight and say HELP MEEEEEEE!! hahaha. k. she's attention seeking. anws. while helping, i realised felicia smiled!! OMG! i was damn happy and feel a sense of accomplishment! cuz she NEVER EVER SMILE OK! cuz she always cries! so my retarded-ness works. but not on purpose =/ oh wells. as long as she happy i happy. haha. then i help Iszat and Angel! hah. then my work is arnd there. completed.

in these 3 days, i really learned that i need to be more patient with manymany things!! yesh. and i really love kids man! i wanna work in a CC! i told my mum and she said in chinese VERY LOW SALARY ONE LAH! DON WAN! so yeah, guess i cant eh.

oh wells. i can rmb their names!
Jonathan,Yuehui,Eugene,Iszat,Issac wan,Issac,Kaijie,Kaiteng,Yirui,Ruiyi,Angel,Jerome,Jonahs,Darreyl,Derrick,Weasley,Dashini,Kaili,Ruili,Xianli(3 lis) hah, Felicia,Zoe,Weixiang(LOOKS LIKE MY COUSIN! chang yu!),Zi wei(annoying boy),many more!
haha. it was a really great experience doing cip there! and i think next year aft O's i may go back there again! auntie Dorothy says i am always welcome back there xD yay! haha. btw auntie Dorothy is the head of the whole CC. COOL YA! =D yup. so on the whole, i just really wanna thank God for this chance to work there and learn from the kids and stuffs! was sooooooooooooooooooo FUN!! xD

2007-12-04T00:09:00.001+08:00

YEAH MAN!! CHRISTMAS MOOD!! changed blog song to my fav christmas song!! hehehe..

anws.. yup. i got a mp4 from my aunt!! no instruction lahh. so im tryin to figure it out with my flat brain -.- oh wells~

TMR DOING CIP IN CHILDCARE CENTRE!! pray for me! i never really like kids in primary age! drives me crazy =/ gosh.. to think of it. i wanted 6 kids! ahaha.. oh wells. that's me. Im currently worried about my baptism and my next year's results. PRAYPRAYPRAY!!

today was a pleasant day. every day shall be a pleasant day! must stay positive!

2007-12-01T22:16:00.000+08:00

band camp was alright i guess. night games was quite a sucess i hope =D haha. the snrs came back! yay! and we celerated ZHU ER'S BIRTHDAY!! coolios ya? haha. then the sec1s swearing in was fast! and i think they did a relatively good job! but was quite sad cause i went off half way? oh wells.

leadership camp was a BLAST MAN!! xD was damn good! inspiring and fun!! the people there were really nice!! my group had: barnabas! rachel! liqun! yanling/ruth! daniel! enqi! and ME! <33 we were group 2! no name. opps. hah. i missed the first day caused of band camp! i didnt sleep much on tues, but i still went off early for the second day! was really tired =/ but i its worth it!! the second day, i was introduced to the people in my group, the facilitators rocked! they were barnabas,yanling, and liqun! they are really nice! so is Rachel, she's friendly! but at first i thought she's abit intimidating, cuz she's from RGS and in IP programme.. eeks. but in the end its alright, breakfast was fine, norm, devoutions was quite productive, really let me think. and not only that! we shared with each other what we learned and our thoughts! real cool! we don really do that for timothy fellowsihp camp.. haha.. then we had games! if im right.. their games were quite cool ya, the ball game and the err, tower game? o.O lol.we had lunch too! this time not in our comfortable grp, instead we numbered and group with people from other groups! and we got to know each other.. and OHOH! we took turns to be leader! yup! then we had the aircraft thingy? haha. at that place, there were many people! from different schools! cause its a jc camp, so there were people aged from 15 to 18. real cool ya? the yfc people were obviously older! haha. i rmb some schools, temasek jc, st.pats sec,monfort,cedar,st.nicks(me only), victoria jc,hwa chong jc,nyjc! COOL YA! but like a little people only lah, from those schools, like 1 to 5 of them in one sch, i was the only one from st.nicks, lol.

anws. then we heard the yfc person preach! the guy is really funny! and he preach in a way that is really approachable to him. and youth for christ(yfc) people are really funny! liqun is super active lah! haha. barnabas is really nice! and yanling seems to be a very understanding person! =D so i learnt quite alot from the preach, it was purpose or principle centered. cant rmb. but the 3rd day was people centred, all abt leadership! from the bible of course =D yup! then at night we started the orientation game! i was the leader this time. loads of stress, cause we had to set off to sentosa at 12am and orientate ourselves from the map! to find clues.. we were lost most of the time though, cause i really cannot read maps. got pissed off at times, but lucky got barnabas there helped me loads, i think the members were rather rash at times? and i really cannot stand it when they start complaining or not listening to me and stuffs, oh wells. haiz. we didnt do very well anws, haha, but i guess we all had fun! its the process that counts ya? =D

anws. so we reached camp site at 5am.. the camp site was KUO CHUAN PRESBYTERAIN SECONDARY SCHOOL! then at 5+am we had BREAKFAST! haha. macs! milo and the sausage mcmuffin! was goooood! but we were all veryvery tired. then we went to bathe and slept at 6.30+ woked up at 12+! then we had lunch.. hahaha. damn pig! <33 ohwells. then we did some stuffs cant rmb.. haha. ohh we listened to the yfc person preach again! yup funny and good =D then we had our elective talk. first one was secular leadership! a MP came to gave us a talk! but she was reallyreally nice! she wasnt stern at all, she actually took the effort to lower herself, and talk to us as if we were friends, its really very comforting =D she's SOOOO FRIENDLY! then the other talk is about student leadership, person talking is former RJC teacher! wow? his quite cool too! haha. the other 2 elective was military and female leadership. quite cool ya? hah. then at night. we had..................... BARBEQUE!!!!!! =DD was damn damndamn good! and i think they are very very thoughtful! as in, we ran like mad the previous day so the next day was PAY BACK TMIE! BBQ rocked man! SATAY<333 my fav of all. my all time fav! hah. gain loads of fats on that day alright. =/ on that night, we had a sharing from a yfc person, she's also friendly! very friendly! she shared to us, abt ministry. and then i realised. there is really not much time left, we need to hurry! =/ was really inspired on that very day. then we

the last day! cause i slept very late, so was er.. really slpy the other day? haha. was supposed to go jogging with the others to kill my fats! but did not, instead i overslept! xj and yanling was damn shock by my ability to sleep and the volume of my snores! x_x opps. anws. i kept dozing off during the devoutions in the morning. haha. anws. throughout the camp there were worship sessions, but were short. so the last day we sang more! and i like the camp theme song, if im right its with christ alone. im not sure, but the song is nice! haha. anws. 4 days went by real fast ya! =/

today! we had timothy fellowship OUTING! the people in E&M did a really great job! hah. me jas xj were damn high can. -.- we were like. YOOOO MANNN!! and HELLO and all. there was 1 new fren and i think he was shocked by us =D anws, my highness lasted through the whole day! 2-8! COOLIOS! longest high time! yeah man! and i really enjoyed fellowship time. and i've decided to use what i learned from leadership camp to my various life activities. and i hope all will be well! =D with God, i know i'll be fine, and I DECIDED TO STAY POSITIVE! yesh! and i will control my tongue! at least try to =/ like no bad words! cause i really realised how bad it is through the camp. eeks! so yesh!! 9th dec will be interview! ah! scared! and 30th dec will be baptism day! woohoo! so fast! 11th to 18th dec will be overseas =/ GOSH! scary sial! my days are fully booked=/ this coming wed is section outing! yay!

~~I NEED TO START STUDYING =/~~

2007-11-23T23:54:00.000+08:00

woo.. long time no use com man! anws. yesh. monday to tues was a BLAST!! <33 I LOVE JASMINE AND ENQI/AGNES BIG TIME MAN! gimme big bear hugg!! <33 anws. mon morning packed up etc then met jas and agnes at bukit batok mrt at 5 plus 6! WA LAO! BUKIT BATOK MRT IS SUPER FAR MAN! =/ i finally understand how agnes and timothy feel. hahah. anyways. yup! agnes's dog is scary man! so AA! haha. funny dog. so we went to her house and play com! the stupid QIAN NV REN! or smth? haha. im JIN BEIBEI! some golden baby. hahha. anws. we played till mid-night -.- then we went to bath. after that. supposed to sleep la uh. but...... i was bored. so HAHA! i started PILLOW FIGHT!!! YEAH MAN! <33 i love it! especially when i play with fun people. cause normally i will win. unless people baka lah -.- and throughout the day jas kept getting 'molest' HAHA!! funny person. oh wells. so we played till 2+ then i slept in the sleeping bag but the floor too hard so i went to squeeeeeze jasmine! hahahha! she was freaking pissed man! cause hahah. i took more than half the bed! lols. she slept like a log! =DD SORRY DEAR! at least i didnt snore this time ya? hahaha.

the next day rushrushrush all the way to chuch! AMK MAN! damn far from bukit batok! had motion sickness on the train lah. anws. the baptism lessons were easy to understand and i think i manage to go with the lessons. aft all. changed and went for short lunch with jas enqi hilary changwei changsheng guofeng! then rush to school =/ for band. while they went out. haiz...... band was. uh. fine? not looking forward to band camp.so called. =/ night games =/=/=/ screwed. anws. ya. got scolded by sia AGAIN >:( i suck =/ band prac was TIRING alright! haiz

next day had classes again! in 2 days my dad managed to teach all 11 lessons! COOLIO ya? my dad was the teacher btw. haha =D pro pap. anws. went out aft classes. we played hide-and-seek. haha. <33 then we went arcade for a few games, walked arnd and HOME! packed my room big time! haha. so guai of me =D

THURS! was a nice day! <33 other than band -.- band in the afternoon. uh. as usual. got scolded run here and there. etc. =/ i promise to be less blur next time man! haiz. then anws. rush off to some place <33

TODAY i mean FRIDAY! morning was practising piano like mad! then afternoon rush off for piano lessons. had lessons from 1.30-4.50 HA! long sial~ but was fun! with ENQI AND JASMINE and my so very cool teacher =D anws. aft all went off to raffles city mall to do hw and wait for anges's eye brow done. haha. for her PROM! so coolios! i know she will look PWEEEEEETTY!! <33 we talk alotalot in the bk -.- haha. then off i go amk hub to meet my mum for dinner! and i managed to psycho her abitbit to get me a mp3/mp4 ya! wooohoo. i hope she will buy it =/ it have been quite long since i wanted it =/ oh wells. today we had abit of communication break down. lol. seems like our brain wave go tgt? abit we just talk diff topic in a common conver? but still can chat very happily until slowly we realised wat we were talking abt wasnt the same? hahha. ohwells. do pray for my mum =/ her blood pressure went high again =/ ya. and continue to keep xiu juan lao shi in prayer! yupyup! tmr hav piano lessons again! and going out after that with agnes and jas. but. IM NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO IT >:( they should know why =/ HAIZ

2007-11-18T23:29:00.000+08:00

omg. i don't know whats with me but seriously kind of confused =/ freak man. i hate this feeling. but i don't know how to move on in a way. but i know i have to move on no matter what. somehow im still stuck. like literally. i know im childish but i just can't help it =/

today had church normal. lessons were FUNFUNFUN! LOVE JASMINE XIAOJUN AND SAMUEL MAN!! <33 classes rock with you guys arnd. haha.. apparently we got uh. kinda high talking abt the ahems topic till the teacher had to change the topic to calm our class down. we are the smallest class with just 4 students in 1 class, however we are the noisiest and the most GOT LIFE class! <33 anws. had choir performance during service! i thought was not bad, at least i didn't go out of tune when i sang the high G ya? haha. and i bet i looked like some idiot. BAHH. oh wells. then had meeting aft lunch. so me changsheng and of course with help from jasmine and acds, plan some stuffs lah. like what we gonna do for next yr. gosh. do keep us in prayers =/ im not a very confident person and all. haiz. im quite scared for next yr. is like. argh. O LEVEL YEAR! omg. and i haven't do my hw yet!!

jessie tan =/=/=/ arghhh.. haiz. anws. tmr morning hav tuitioN! then i gonna do housework(sweep+mop) and MAYBE go cut my hair with SISTER <33 and then at 5 me jas and agnes gonna meet up and SHOP! wooots! and we gonna sleep over in ENQI HOUSE! wahahah. so looking forward to it man! =D next day hav baptism classes so i might be late for band =/ oh wells. BAND >:( SIA! omg.. =/=/=/ NIGHT GAMES! AHHHH!! =/ i hope its not a disappointment.

2007-11-17T00:16:00.000+08:00

wooo!! TODAY IS CASSANDRA'S BIRTHDAYYYYY!! <3333 HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEARRR!! haha. doubt she will actually read this cause SHE IS DOING HER HOMEWORKK NOW!! >:( crazy

haiz. oh wells. someone kill me please! today is finally the end of SCHOOL! yet im damn stressed than ever apparently i really cant make it. dyinggg.. i kept thinking abt next yr!! and i havent read the proposal thingy for sunday's meeeting!! dieee =/=/=/

today was err.. ok? i guess.. lessons were boring as usual =/ tiring too. bio we did human reproductive system! EWWW =/ chem- pon most of it. maths is like OMG >:( then had prize presentation! sexayy. then investiture was HOT AND SEXAYYY hahah.. oh wells. all of them look coolios!!

anws. aft all is night games comm meeting. and seriously. argh, im speechless man.. i dunno how to say or rather shld i say it here. but im just rather. unhappy(put in a veryvery nice way already-obviously i feel much worst than that) argh. ya. but still we managed to get it most solved ya. and i managed to type out the proposal already that is long overdued =/ argh.. so.... x_x

haiz. anws. aft meeting went to meet my love! hahahah.. ok lah.. not really JAS<33 we went to toysrus cause i need to get a SOFTOY for my part time maid that is leaving and not coming back anymore =/ omg i gonna miss her like crap? i know her for 6-7 years and now she's not gonna be part of my life anymore =/=/=/ mannn.. and the worst is i cant keep in contact with her! >:( tell me i suck =/ then we just walked arnd. from united square to j8. haha, funnie. kk. shall go do work now >:(

HAPPY BIRTHDAYY CASSSSSSSSANDRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! <33333333333333333333333333333

2007-11-15T21:36:00.000+08:00

ohh. that time i fell down at drama studio!

coolios eh?
~~compared to how i feel now, its nothing~~

2007-11-15T21:15:00.000+08:00

eeks! have been quite long since i last updated this blog. Oh wells. Im as pessimistic as ever =/ Bahh. Oh wells. it is still school time and I've been ponning quite a lot of lessons so far? Haiz. sucks man. Yesterday went to visit yong-shuang-cai chuan dao. Apparently he look better now, good. Do keep him and xiu juan lao shi in prayers =/ Hope they can get well soon.

argh. anws. days in sch is NO GOOD >:( have been rather down lately, i do know the reason why but i seriously need to get over it. like FCK why am i so useless? argh. freaking shit and this time hols is not hols for me lah. i got LOADS of work and only have LESS THAN A MONTH to complete all the shit?? freak man. and with all the thoughts in my kuku head i doubt i can do anything.

oh ya. i started my chem/maths tuition! AH! my tutor ROCKS man! he is a man of course and he really is VERYVERY friendly! WOOTS! now i really need help for Amaths =/=/ my test went off shitly, i cant even do a perfect qn. argh. FAILFAILFAIL =/=/=/

and freak band camp is in less than 2 wks time and the night games comm haven even meet up 1 proper time yet! >:( anws. I've plan quite some stuffs of course with help from TIMO =D thanks so much ya! So this time it will be story-based. and i will try to make sure that it will be SCARY and gross. hopefully? cause this will be the very last time im planning. making sure NIGHT GAMES is good. the other 2 times i planned, haiz, 1st time was o.O 2nd time was much better due to the haunted house but abit screwed still. so this yr, hopefully no screw ups and all will be niceyyy HOPEFULLY =/

tmr is the last day of sch! excited? NOT AT ALL >:( haiz. dearest marietta is sick lah =/=/ do pray for her too! anws. got back connexio today! coolios i look like a spastic person >:( KNS lahh.. gahh! oh wells. =/ im tired and i feel so lost. i have loads of hw to complete BY tmr! and seriously i cant make it man. shit IM AN LAZY ASS. RAHHHH

2007-10-31T22:45:00.000+08:00

woohoo. wat a day! morning went to swimswim with sister =DD swam 10 laps and was damn shagg lah.. then went off arnd central for sister's salad and etc. lols. went back home etc jas came to me hse too! <33 anws. yup so.. she help to type the prayer items. then off we go to liangwen house, this saturday's preparation for worship. yupyup. we were supposed to rch at 3.30 but ended up rching at 4+! eeks x_x

anws. first thing we did was haha. we sort all the songs ah. then yup started off from the living room. ended up in his room. haha. got me jas changsheng liangwen. =D anws. became kinda emo in the middle.. shant mention why and was rather err. bad mood and all? and im really sorry to bring the mood down lah.. =/ dearest JASMINE made me really happy although she gonna bang sei me on friday again. she haha. played the hitting hand game thingy? then i got really entertained by her screaming cuz its just damn hilarious? hahahh. stupid girl.. but aww.. really THANK YOU so much! she's really sweet ah.. =/=/=/ felt so bad!! then the guys started playing soccer on ps.. then we just watched. was HILARIOUS! the free kick and stuffs.. hahaha..

anws.. then me and jas went back to sengkang and ate at compasspoint then walked arnd and arnd. hahah. was really fun!! hah. laughing here and there.. oh wells. i just spent my day liddat.. haven't touched my maths at all =/ STRESSED and guess wat! i brilliantly FORGOT to actually PHOTOCOPY THE CONDUCTOR SCORES!!!! ARGHHH!! im so bloody dead?? i dunno wat to do now =/=/=/ GAHHHH

2007-10-30T22:31:00.000+08:00

>:( sorry, i don't mean to sigh alot. but haiz.. i feel so. ambivalent.. im not sure is it a right word to use. but. argh. just so. >:( and all. so mixed up.. anws. i want to say. on sunday play with jas at a very memorable playground.. and ya.. it was really fun. then monday. she was damn hilarious. oh wells. i love jasmine! <33
but.. monday had piano lessons. and i was rather upset and all. is like. i did practised my piano! but. my coordination still have alot of problems. and i keep going faster! so now. i gonna play A1 and B2. wonderful =/ i wanted to play B3 the romantic piece.. shitt. =/

tues. is today. whole day just watched videos la ok. first up is spirited away then was huo4 yuan2 jia3 the 2nd show was damn gross lah. x_x and uhh. after recess i was damn clumsy i ran and slip and fall in drama studio. and guess wat. i was smacked on the wall fyi. >.< so now my left knee is kinda swollen lahh. gahh. so annoying. band was ater sch. argh. got scolded as usual by miss sia. =/ haiz. everything just my fault.. sec1s in clarinet section no score ALSO my fault.. whatever goes with scores are my fault. wonderful alright. so i just got a whole damn stack of conductor scores home to photocopy. wth. how great >:(

dinner with granny, dad, mum as usual. but granny was cute. she was spelling her name in english! damn kawaiii.. haha. she make my day. kind of? haiz..

i just dread totally for next yr. struggling this yr already. i don't know can i make it.. and it is gonna be totally horrid for me on parents meet =/ haven't tell my parents anything about my results. gahh. im so dead! >:(

trying. to forget what happened in the past.just keep appearing out of no where. argh. really annoyed!

2007-10-28T00:00:00.000+08:00

wooooohooooo~ finding songs now.. for worship ppt next wk abit.. so next wk me jas aaron gonna lead worship and its shi ge zan mei hui! omg.. fyi its a programme that sings alot pray etc.. gahh.. damn scared sial.. anws.

today morning intended to go swim! but rain =( kns. i need to jian fei lahhh! then went amk hub meet jas. that woman hor. late for 1 full hour man! haha. nvm. but understandable. hav ncc and moving sch. HAH. poor thing. then tuan qi~!! today was games day. hah. our grp surprisingly won! woots! =D o wells. chimes aft tt.. abit. we did the worship thingy.. so i was first. hahah. coolios. was not bad. =D

oh wells. uploading the photos now. and my bloody com is lagging >: ( ta ma de.. grr.. gahhh.. i feel so lethargic.. need to mugg for O's next year! but i cant feel motivated somehow! but i really need to start! ahhh =(

2007-10-27T01:20:00.000+08:00

Pink - Who Knew lyrics
You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them up
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
For they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew

2007-10-27T00:12:00.000+08:00

hahah.. alright. yesh. its the HOLS for the lower sec now! abit... the poor sec3s are still having their dearest remedial.. and guess wat. -.- the blur me lost a veryvery impt chinese assessment bk.. apparently i left it in the freakin bus and just happily got out of the bus! ahhh!! how dumb.. now chng na mui gonna kill me.. BIG TIME >: ( anws.. i don't like cl lessons lah!! i want ongshanshan!! grr.. that chng na mui ALWAYS pick on me.. she say to the class that 99% of us are qian1gong1you2li3 only 1% WHICH IS ME -.- cause she keep staring at me.. then today i fell aslp and she calls me shui4shen2(sleeping God) incase you don't know.. ahh! last time she calls me shui4gong1zhu3 la! wtfreak. =( ohwells. i never liked her.

anws. thinking of dropping lit.. should i? should i not? haiz.. results aint good.. hope i won't retain? i don't know. ohwells. this wk hav been quite fun i guess. went out with dearest marietta on thurs! to clarkquey!! <33 cam-whored man! hahah.. she's sooooooooo pweeeeety! hahahah. xD uh.. anws. went to make the chimes thingy with samuel today and we looked so wrong!! hahaha. oh wellls. but we know that we're pure. hahah.. and i found out that the uncle always half naked ah!! omg.. o.O wrong. so wrong. anws. PRAISE THE LORD!! the shirt is almost done ya! just one last friday and it'll be done! i plead that it will be nice =/ ok. shall go watch my TANTEI GAKUEN Q!! can see my man. hoho <33

2007-10-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

studying with yongg. lols.

2007-10-24T23:42:00.000+08:00

wahhhhhhhh. finally new skin. ok. so. i lessons as usual for now. anws. currently. in 3weeks. there are 7deaths lah. and some of them i know =/ gosh. i hope world's gonna end soon. so less people will suffer that badly. oh ya. come to think of it. my life have 2 very important and inspiring people! my 2nd uncle and my piano teacher! aww. my uncle is a wise old man. that is so freaking knowledgable. =/ my piano teacher is not talented but really hard working! she say i can do it as long as i work hard! but its difficult to work hard >:( oh wells. TMR NO SCH! WOOTS!! gonna go outttttt =DD okok. shall upload the outdated pics soon!

2007-10-23T20:21:00.000+08:00

HOHO! TODAY IS NAT ONG'S BIRTHDAY!! so SPECIAL post for SPECIAL person!! =D

alright... HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET 16 NATALIE ONG PEI FOONG!! haha. frankly.. in the beginning of the year quite scared of you uh. don't know how to communicate.. anws.. but now you are a really great friend alright!! esp haha. last term all the ahems.. oh wells. not worth mentioning. but still.. those times were really fun ya!! though today apparently you pon sch -.- but still.. hope you enjoyed this day of yours!! and stop being so ever annoyed ok? and no emo! and yes.. not to forget.. i really do appreciate all the things you did to me ya! THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH! i <33 you!!haha.. alright. less words more pics!!

alright.. there's more but i lazy. OKOK! I LOVE YOU OK!! HAPPY SWEEEEEET 16 AGAIN!! solly! we will hold a celebration when we not so broke k? =D

2007-10-15T23:40:00.000+08:00

haha. not to forget.. injury check: 10 blisters 4 burst.. 8 bruises.. and both legs muscle aches.. and my waist too.. haha.. quite weak uh. lol.. oh wells.. im getting sick! so haha.. like finally =D thank God.

EDWARD CULLEN IS HOTHOTHOT!! lols..

2007-10-15T22:54:00.000+08:00

im finally back to post! i've been contemplating.. to blog first or pictures first.. i guess i'll blog first =DD haha..

alright.. lets see. wed morning did loads of houseworks!! i changed the bedsheets and then sweep vacuum and mopped the house alright! woots.. then i went out with SHEILA HUISHAN and NATONG! had loads of fun ya <33 haha. we went to vivo! walked arnd quite alot for sheila's shorts. and omg. i forgot my camera >:( haiz. oh wells. we had FUN!FUN!FUN! haha. thurs was hols too! so anws.. was SUPPOSED to go sentosa.. but it changed to a surprise party in annice's house for her beeeeeeeelated birthday! haha.. yet again! i forgot my bloody camera! the most impt thing mann. oh wells. we reached her condo at 10? and started eating breakfast first and then prepare.. pasted arrows and all. haha.. hav to admit that annice is really blur uh.. haha.. anws. the whole surprise only activated at 1!!! wth right? we actually waited for her to bathe and all.. lols.. wth.. anws.. it didnt started off quite right.. so.. haha. we took pictures near the pool! and.. we pushed her in! and great me actually sacrifice and got dunk with her INTO THE POOL! but gosh it was damn fun! <33 haha. SHAN actually pushed both of us down tgt cuz apparently annice was too strong for me to push her down.. and marietta joined us a little later.. lols.. so thurs was a great day!

friday! GAMES DAY! was FUNFUNFUN! haha. and yesh! i played floorball yet again! 3 straght years man! <33 but this year.. its very different! i played 3 floorball games. 2 soccer games. 1 table tennis. and 1 captain's ball! WOOOOOOTS! was damn fun! but hhaha.. yesh. i lost quite alot huh.. but apparently.. soccer was really fun! hahah.. cant believe i actually enjoyed it <33 was funfunfun! we overall got 3rd alright! tied with grace! we really did our best and we deserved to be pampered a little bit! haha.. hope there is some class gathering or smth in the end of the year! =D anws. aft all the fun.. and sweat and wet.. i had piano lessons. gosh i was damn tired.. and smelly. i waited for myself to dry and sprayed hell lot of deodarant gah lazy to check the spelling. anws. ya. then went off to piano! i got my grade7 pieces. haven't chose the pieces yet.. but i do hope i can do real well this time. I GONNA PUT MY HEART INTO IT MAN! =D yes. aft that.. went straight home didnt got a chance to bathe and went straight to my 4th uncle's wake. haiz. i guess i didnt mention this. i have 2 relatives that passed away this month. its not a very pleasant thing indeed. =/ haiz. friday was just really tiring.. so at the wake i met manymany people! my 1st,2nd,3rd,5th,7th uncles.. hmm. and their wife of course.. and i met my cousins! my3rd uncle's children.. really proud of my cousin pam man! she have 4 kids! haha. my 2 nieces and 2 nephews.. Laura, Emma, Michael, and baby Daniel. how adorable =D but the sad thing is im a AUNTIE! ahhh.. horrid.. anws.. yes.. i wan 5 kids! i guess.. hmm.. nono. i wan 4 kids now! =D even number.. hahah! alright.. im mad.. ok.. so.. i reached home at 12+ am.. was damn tired alright

SATURDAY! went out in the morning 8am to meet my sunday sch class! <33 aww. SPONGEBOB SQUARE PANTS CLASS! the most cool class ever in the sunday school! hahahahah.. anws.. we went east coast to cycle! it was raining damn heavily.. but who cares? me and samuel was like its ok! so jasmine rebecca(samuel's sis) and jacky went to cycle! of course not bringing our teacher along cause apparently she will get sick! deardear.. haha.. anws. aft funfun cycling we went to changi for lunch popeye HELL I CANT SPELL. oh wells. but the food was DARN good man! <33 ahah. that day the whole day was teacher's treat! =/ feel damn bad.. haiz. anws she's really nice! <33 haha. had a great day! aft all the fun.. i realised i was half handicapped.. lol.. went back to church.. wet.. and smelly.. got changed and used my handy deodarant. and of course had our fellowship.. had an inspiring talk by azds though. yesh. and uh. i still dunno wats my spiritual gift.. oh wells. takes time.. then.. played cap's ball! i was the catcher.. a short one. hah. but yes. was fun! even as a catcher. =D then had chimes. not really. we played games instead.. haha. then was late night.. me and jasmine then took bus since both our parents didnt pick up to our calls.. haiz.. we didnt wanna go home.. so we just liggered arnd.. and apparently at 11pm we were at the void deck of jas's house talking. aww.. was really nice.. at least.. she's a real good listener <33

ahah. so yesh.. hav been playing alot.. sunday was alright i guess. went to the cremation of m 4th uncle.. haiz.. first time attending to a buddihism cremation.. and a real short one.. then had vegetarian brunch with my relatives. haiz. my 4th uncle really looked like my dad! freak =/ how saddening.. haiz.. but oh wells. im glad his not suffering now.. and right aft the cremation.. my dad rushed to myanmar. haiz. do keep in prayers for my dad! i don think Myanmar is a safe place to go.. but he is on a mission trip.. haiz. sometimes.. i hoped he didnt have to do such things.. but. its all for God ya. yesh. i should learn from him! but its not easy.

today is monday! another simple day! these few days have been pretty ocuppied by reading a really good book! falling in love with EDWARD CULLEN! hothothot! his a damn hot guy!! WOOOTS! haha. playing piano.. aww.. really determined to master my pieces.. sleeping.. though i had nightmares.. and eating real good food! ahah.. sounds like a pig uh.. oh wells.. today had french food for lunch in a french restaurant(duh) was dammit good! then.. had kfc for dinner oh gosh. time for me to go on a diet ya! =D GO JESSIE GO!! slim down! slim down! slim down! anws. tmr is get back results day. dread that day man =/

2007-10-10T00:50:00.000+08:00

Which Winnie the Pooh Character Are You?
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bahh.. im pooh! sister is tigger! x_x i feel very free. haha.

2007-10-10T00:12:00.000+08:00

YES!!!!!!!! EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVERRRRRR!! DAMN HAPPY MAN!!!!! HOHOHOHOHOHOHOOHOHOHO!! though i counted 48marks lost in total for my amaths.. i just gonna let it go and not let it affect my holiday mood! now i really look forward to my hokaido trip! away from this sad place! yay!! anws. it was really great today! we went to playplayplay! <33

anws.. study session aft sch on mon was FUN! i did 2 qn only la. but WHO CARES? it was memorable and FUN! ahahah. stupid beckie make me run until i felt 3 months pregnant. I ACCIDENTALLY THREW THE SWEET AT HER ahems.. ONLY WAT! hahahah.. opps? uh-huh.. photos to be uploaded soon! apparently my cam died on me today!

so yesh! these few weeks have been CRAZINESS for me alright? studying in sch etc.. being stressed and all the shits.. and THANK YOU GOD!! thank you for leading me through. though sometimes i go crazy.. yesh! i still thank you so much for all the help and strength you gave me to push on! =DDD its over~~ finally over~~ woohoo~ anws.. the wound on my hand is healing very nicely! not very fleshy anymore.. haha. but sister says it will be swollen ya.. haiz.. its deeply nice! gahh. im sad now. >:(

alright, bad thoughts go away! anws.. these few weeks i wouldn't be able to survive without manymany people! I LOVE- jasmine yap!agnes tan!liangwen!tracey!marietta!yong!jingwen!blanche!sheila!natong!huishan!faith!beckie!my family! and most impt GOD!!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!! and of course.. thank you all those who kept me in prayer! and in a way or another wished me goodluck! oh ya! special mention! thank you JODIE dear! cause right aft chem exam you came to me and hug me! felt the love alright! hairsprayyyyyyyyy hahah.. love you!

alrighty!! TODAY! RIGHT after amths exams! err. i went to ls. hahaha. nono.. ok. we went out! me marietta annice! <33 we went to TOY MUSEUM!! WAS SO FUN OK! =DD gahh.. i wan my cam to revive like now so i can upload those pictures -.- bahh. cant wait for THURS! gonna play beach volley! yay! anws. today we like pig la ok. first ate lunch at sakae sushi then went arnd then went to hagendas(wateva its spelled) lols.. ok.. really pigged laa.. eat a hell lot in just 2 places! >: ( and im officially broke cause of tt. but its ok! i'll replenish my money! today we walked alot! went esplanade and saw the beloved shinyyyyyyyyy soprano sax!! I WANNA GET IT! >: ( i've tried the alto/tenor/bari.. and i really dunno if i can play the soprano.. i hope i can though. but it seems so damn different! but i wanna get it. cuz once im outta band.. haiz. no more saxyyyy =/=/=/ i cant believe i actually missed band.. aft all.. BAHH. im crazy!

BAHH! i feel so bleh now.. its like.. weird.. but im not supposed to slack too much! cause next yr is MUGG year! O's man!! STUDYSTUDYSTUDY! and it hav been ages since i read a book. today i read 3 chaps and had 34 words i don understand. suck man. and now im not flooded with studies im flooded with HOUSEWORK! =( i hate houseworks man.. esp aft exam period.. my family will think im really free and all. gahh. sucks. i wanna get paid doing houseworks!! anws.. i cant wait for tmr. going to vivo! but before that i need to do hell lot of houseworks =/ change bedsheets! sweeping and mopping the floor! ah!! and washing the dishes! gosh =/ oh wells. GOOD LUCK TO ME FOR MY HOUSEWORK! GOOD LUCK TO ALL SEC3s TAKING EXAMS TMR! LAST PAPER! GOGOGO! GOOD LUCK TO ALL THE PEOPLE TAKING O's! THEIR VERYVERY LASY LAP! googogo!

hokaido! snow! im coming! <33

2007-10-08T20:47:00.000+08:00

YOYOYO! im here to post a very special post for a very special fren who TODAY IS HIS BIRTHDAY! CHEN LIANGWEN! TAN LIAN BOON! Hahha. our very beloved jie mei~! =DD i know you are in army now. so you cant read this post.. haha. anws. just wanna say that you've been a really great help for me in a way.. at least. you were there ya when i needed someone! thank you jie mei! alright! so often im in your captain's ball team arh. i realised.. haha. and it have been always great for you to be arnd.. cause you always manage to crack up some super lame jokes.. but somehow.. it still worked in a way to cheer others up! haha.. you are in army now. and even had heartattack! must take care ya? if not me and jas will come and hantam you! haha. oh ya. to think of it. you are really talented musically! thank you God! and. haha. i still rmb you wanting to form a band outside?? jia you ok! i know you'll be great =D if you need any help in a way or another. i'll be there =D

ALRIGHTYY time for abit of pictures! i found out that we seldom take picture o.O

haha. me you jas =D eh. i look retarded...

lols. very last pic of the 3 of us =D ok. time for unglam-ness xD

Ah! unglam! ahhaha.. alrighty.. shall end here..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIANGWEN!! TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF OK? lovelove~!! <33

2007-09-22T14:30:00.000+08:00

gosh =/ wat a week. im fcking stress alright.. i got back quite a few things i guess.. I FINALLY PASSED MY CHEM TEST! praise the Lord!! <33 hmm. i passed my piano =DD thank God for his blessings and guidance! and. uh! its just 5 days to my EOYs! next thursday! how screwed huh.. =/ i got so much more untouched things. and im so fcking screwed.. i hope i can get hospitalised or smth =/ so stressed out.. and anws.. im going out for bbq later! AHH!! i need discipline! =/=/=/ gosh. im dying man.... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..... BLEH.. okok.. shall TRY to study for now =/

2007-09-16T21:49:00.000+08:00

after much preparation for bu dao hui the big day.. it is finally over!! yesterday night was the bu dao hui! woo~~ i think it went well! like really well =D PRAISE THE LORD! woo~~ much thanks to many pple! thankyou natong huishan and sheila for coming! <33 aha.. thankyou people who help me make up- zhuomin and bifen laoshi! thankyou all those who tried to calm me down in any ways. cause ahah.. im a gan chiong person. and of course THANK YOU GOD FOR ALWAYS SHOWERING YOUR BLESSINGS ON US! WITHOUT YOU NOTHING WILL BE DONE! =DD alright.. now that all my programmes are off.. left my piano results i guess. and the freaking irritating EOYs.. alamak.. im like nooooooot studying!!!! tian ah!! >:( how saddening~ haiz.. oh wells. shall be off studying i guess.

11 days to EOYs!! oh God =/

2007-09-09T23:16:00.000+08:00

ARGHHH!! for goodness sake.. you both make me so lost! i really don't know what to do. and omg..... school starts tomorrow and im so NOT prepared! i studied so little!! omg.. =/ i dissapointed myself and so many others. AGAIN! but i tried! i completed all chaps of chem notes and lit hw. that's all! i think im really slow!?!?! tian ahhh =( shoots man. i so dread for tmr to come? SCHOOL REOPEN. disastrous mann.. to think of it. I NEVER DO MISS QUEK HOMEWORK!! the worst of the worst.. bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......... SOMEONE KILL ME PLEASE!! I DON'T WANNA GO SCHOOL TOMORROWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

Dear God, I need you.

2007-09-08T23:16:00.000+08:00

have been thinking since. To think of it. i have been breaking promises ever since i started it. so i have made up my mind. this will be the last time i did it. and i will keep my promise that i will stop. unless something big happen. argh. surprisingly, the word sorry hurts. do not use it so many times cause you do not know how much it caused. life still goes on. i don't know how to feel now. feeling so much. guess i should be relieved. now. im gonna study real hard.all my thoughts will be transferred to my work. till i collapse till aft EOYs.
Dear God, please guide me through like how you always do in my life. You know what is the best for me. I believe you and I have faith in you.

2007-09-07T00:14:00.001+08:00

oh ya.. hmm.. i wanna share a verse here.. it have been ages since i ever did my devotions. but ya, things happened yesterday and i decided to do my devotions! hah. randomly picked up a 'outdated' daily bread and flip to a page. this verse is rather meaningful to me though.. reflects on my life. alot.. so yup. here goes..

From Romans 5:1-5
1Therefore sice we have been justified by faith we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. 2Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of glory of God. 3More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, 4and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, 5and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.

yup. verse 3 onwards especially teaches me somethings. i hope it did to the people who read this too... hah..

2007-09-06T23:57:00.000+08:00

oh gosh! im incorrigible i cant stand it! i only completed my chem notes and both maths' files! ahh! and the beloved hols is ending already! ohgosh! i have not enough time! =( arghhh..

ohwells. shall start frm yesterday =D THANKYOU soooo much! jasmine and enqi~ <33 thanks for the album and the sweet.. haha. pig sweeet =D thank you soooo much ya! hoho. anws. yes. have been doing chem and chem only these fews days =/ and arghh. cant stand myself. oh wells. had rehearsal yesterday night. guess was fine? but! i forgot my lines oh gosh =( arghh.. God please help me! ahh!

anws. for today! hah! i finally completed my chem notes! then went to thomson plaza to meet the section. for JIAYING! yes. waited for the 2 slowpokes at the toilet and played with jw hide and seek.. lols.. then went to get the cake and lighter then went to yamaha to BOO her! hahah.. right.. she have no idea la! lol.. =DD oh wells. its nice to give pple surprises.. hoho! anws.. went to kfc for dinner. hmm. was alright.. had the cake. sang birthday song for herr.. =DD was nice.. lols. then jiaying left for tuition. left 2 greens 2 blues 1 red and 1 yellow. rightoo..

walked with jw for quite long =D haha. it have been a very long period since i talk to someone for so long. as in ya.. =/ oh wells. was really nice to talk to her =D oh wells.. then went back to j8. was kinda sad. argh. wth. whenever im sad i will go and spend all my money! bad habit! ARGH! so i did exactly wat i am NOT supposed to do! wthhhhh... ended up buying useless stuffs for others and i realised i have totally no money to go home! cause my card hav no value -.- arghhh.. im such an idiot ya... lols. oh wells. so i called home for my mum to come and save me. heheh..
haiz. ohwells. life is tough ya...
time will heal
the sad thing is you are healing but im not

2007-09-02T18:53:00.000+08:00

DID YOU EVER TALK TO GOD ABOVE

Did you ever talk to God above
Tell Him that you need a friend to love
Pray in Jesus' name believing that
God answers prayers
Have you told Him all your cares and woes
Every tiny little fear He knows
You can know He'll always hear and
He wil answer prayer

You can whisper in a crowd to Him
You can cry when you're alone to Him
You don't have to pray out loud to Him
He knows your thoughts
On a lofty mountain peak He's there
In a meadow by a stream He's there
Anywhere on earth you go
He's been there from the start

2007-09-02T18:38:00.000+08:00

alright. so today was jasmineee's birthday! hoho. sang birthday song for her during sunday school class! lols. ok im damn embarrassed lah -.- abit im the only one singing throughout the whole thing in the end. oh wells. abit of embarrassment is worth it ya =D

anws. i love the song DID YOU EVER TALK TO GOD ABOVE! it makes me think. alot =/ yes. haiz. oh wells. alright.. so i guess all was fine? went quite ok.. er.. service was as usual. boring =( and jasmine was bored! ahh! im so sorry! im really bad at keeping pple entertained in a serious environment.. i didnt mean to make you feel bored on your birthday! gosh =/ ohwells. had lunch! HAH! weixiong chipped in big time to a small slice of cake for jasmine =D so we went hawker for lunch. lols. of course.. the cake is not only for eating la uh~ hoho. i was freaking broke so i cldnt buy whipped cream as planned =/ so hah. we wait until jas left abit of cake. then. hah! evil me grab the cake! cream cake somemore~~ i smack it on her face!! HOHO. was fun! =DD but ehh.. my hand was sooo oily.. blehhs. hah. but ^_^ she was kinda smashed with cake =DD yay!!

alright. then went home with weixiong. haha. im supposed to study!! but aft reading To Kill A Mocking Bird. first page i fell aslp. then ended up waking half an hour later!! started off with emaths.. half a chap and incorrigible me cant make it. my attention span is superrr short!! so i started walking arnd grabbing stuffs to eat. and at 5 went off with mum to cut hair! hehe. ahh. my hair is er.. ok i guess.. =/ i hope its not that bad! ohwells. im supposed to study!!!!! so i shall go! =/
GO JESSIE TAN! GO STUDY!!!!

2007-09-02T00:14:00.000+08:00

alright so this SOMEONE is the dearest JASMINEEEE!! ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY DEAR!! so i shall dedicate this post to you!! <33 ahah.. yes

so we known each other since when? 1 year old? hahah.. abit.. we stay sooo close too. not very close but quite close lah horr~ hah. anws. i Thank God for letting me know you. as a Friend and as God-sister! haha. yes. you are special ya! to me! thank you sooo much for always being there! both physically and mentally! esp when i needed help the most! you were there =D thank you!! haha. now that you are 15! you are same age as me! sama sama~~ NI LAO LE!!! lols. continue to stay cute and sweeeeeeeeeet ya!! <33 gosh. hah.. i do hope you like your birthday present and the card i bought. i gonna get smth else too for your birthday but not now ya. kinda broke. haha. but i really hope you like ur present!! =DD anws. cam-whoring with you are always fun! haha. laughing soooo much always no matter in bus during piano lessons or during sunday sch! hah. thank you for keeping my secrets too ya! and of course all the tears i shed with your presence.. thank you! alright. so i pray that God will continue to guide you through all the obstacles you may find in your life and that you will live happily like you always do! haha. ok. so lets see what you look like when we were kids!!

hahah. can you see that fat little girl. you were soooo chubby then! and me beside you. haha. i was so hairless lah wth -.- hah. and of course our siblings are there.

another one!! haha. we were performing then. gosh you look unhappy!

haha. look at you in pink! bleh colour. hah. i look rather stony. wats with that leopardish shirt! i look like a boyboy. hahah. from left you/your bro/your sis/ my sis/ and me!

hah! this is with our beloved piano teacher! <33 this is taken in malaysia i guess.. haha.. teacher look sooo different now ya. but HAH! look at you man! xD so chubby! so freaking diff from now lahh uh~

alright! shall see some PRESENT photos of US! <33

ah! now look who is the fat one =( you passed me all your chubby-ness!!!

there are sooo many unglam pics lah!! hahaha

extra piano lessons before our exams!

national day celebration!

with agnes this time! during family outing thingy~

US!US!US!<33

most recent picture of us!! =DD haha.. alright. so i really hope you will enjoy this special day of yours ya! its a SUNDAY! I LOVE YOU!! HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY YA!!

2007-09-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

pppttthh! i feel so much relieved now! =DD today was somehow.. a lil screwed i guess =/ but oh wells.. all is over THANK YOU GOD!! but today was really really tiring. so tiring =(

anws! yesterday was FUN! er.. supposed to like wake up at 8 to study! ended up waking at 11 and started scweaming my head off! hurry wash up and started filing my maths and Amaths files. by the time i finish jasmine called. ha! so yup! went out to her sch there to meet her =D was rather late.. hehehe. lunch at KFC! wooooo~ i love kfc! ahah. then went to some wird ABC shop to get tidbits for today's movie screening that i am in-charge in. then we went to bishan. to rent the video. but ARGH! they need my ic. and wth! i haven got it! >:( so cannot rent but jasmine helped me to rent at night! yay! so that was settled.. then we walked arnd j8 and guess wat. i met huishan AGAIN! ah. so fated man. hahah..

then we went bugis! to get beloved jasmine's bag.. hah. my birthday prezzie for her <33 part of it. of course.. but currently quite broke. so will give her another part some other day.. heard that yapjingmin?? haha

anws.. walked arnd ya.. when we wanted to leave abit we saw her sis! haha. coolo~~ yup.. we walked arnd both at bugis junction and street.. =D bought stuffss.. was fun! with JASMINE YAP JINGMIN! we shld go out more often ya. haha.. and yes! we took pics. <33 alright. SOMEONE's BIRTHDAY IS COMING orhhh..... hahahh..

gosh. so about today. morning jasmine came my hse to do her C&N stuffs.. then i bathed and went to her hse to wait for her to bathe -.- hahha. then we went off to amk hub to meet teacher/samuel/xj. yup! TEACHER treat us to pepper lunch! so nice of her! =DD so lunch was filling. gosh. haha. we were so late.. anws. went to church early with all our tidbits etc..

started setting up etc. the projector and labtop abit siao =/ but all went fine. i guess? was so tensed and stressed up. haiz. in the end not much pple came.. as in.. half of the usual amnt of pple came. argh. was a lil discourage but didnt really affect me cause LIFE GOES ON!! yes. so C&N did their angel mortal game. OH GOSH. tian ah. am i fated or wat -.- i got _______ lol. anws. the letter thingy was rather screwed.. i was in-charged of it though =/ then movie! haiz. i think i really cant make it lah huh. gosh. i cld'nt take charge of the situation lah.. =/ haiz. then the movie started rather late? but was a nice movie. hah. i teared! gosh. it hav been some days since i last cried. =/ oh wells..

then cap's ball. first time feeling so useful for the game. lol. anws. had worship thingy aft tt.. had to clear up though so everything was late etc. was so tired. THANK YOU JASMINE!! haha. thanks for helping ya! both physically and mentally <33 anws. so had to run up run down etc. keeping this and that. ah. was tiring alright. but jasmine was there. and thank you so much to all the others who helped out in a way or another. THANK YOU LORD! so much!! thank you for letting today be not that screwed as i thought it would be ya! phew~ i feel so relieved~~ alright. shall post again for SOMEONE ;D

2007-08-31T00:35:00.000+08:00

Five For Fighting - Superman

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird
I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
And it's not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
'Bout a home I'll never see

It might sound absurd
But don't be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed
But won't you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me

Up, up and away, away from me
Well, it's alright
You can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy or anything

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me, INSIDE OF ME, YEAH,
INSIDE OF ME,
INSIDE OF ME,
INSIDE OF ME,

I'M ONLY A MAN IN A FUNNY RED SHEET
I'M ONLY A MAN LOOKING FOR A DREAM
I'M ONLY A MAN IN A FUNNY RED SHEET
AND IT'S NOT EASY

It's not easy to be me

2007-08-30T23:56:00.000+08:00

HAH! today started out super bad! but things just get better! HAH!! NO SCHOOL TMR!! WOOTS!! ALL CREDITS TO THE POWER FAILURE!! =DD haha.. damn funny.. the school is so retarded.. love power failure man! no school tmr. lol..

oh wells.. this wk hav been a weird week.. ups and downs.. loads of it. =/ but hah. i never thought it could be open! but it did! =D my results were never so bad, like shit. haiz. hah. im just so happy that i have no sch tmr! muahaha.. cant even think properly now..

HA.. anws. 'learning' a song now. for piano.. superman! hah.. old song. but was once super addicted to it! oh wells. i only cld play the front part cuz the lazy natong lazy to bring her score!! so yup! =DD

chinese prelims today was CRAP. wth. my zuo wen wrote really shit lah! wat si4 jiao3 chao2 tian1. gosh.. i think im damn crap. hah. lucky not graded. i still hope i could score well..

GOSH! im still awaiting for my stupid piano exams results!! i cant stand it! i really hope i can get wat i deserve in God's view.. =/

oh wells.. shall go. hah. im too happy. i cant think for now.
START MUGGING JESSIE! YOU HAVE 29 DAYS LEFT LAZY PIG!!

2007-08-26T00:04:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. i woke up rather late today! again.. hah. 12.05pm.. my mum was screaming lah! oh wells. i did lit till 2+ yesterday.. so i deserve the sleep =D yup! so today aint that bad.. i ignored my thoughts. i told myself not to think so much. yes. went to amk hub to take pictures for the coming rally.. ah! seems like ages since i wore heels and skirt! super uncomfortable today.. heh.. my leg hurt like shit man! x_x

haiz. anws. so had rehearsal.. was err. rather fine i guess.. as usual. norm.. then had dinner at macs! abit.. i think im addicted to mcflurry! it just taste soooo good then normal nowadays =D its like irresistable to me now. but.. its SUPER FATTENING!! =( gosh. i grew fat and im growing so much more fat ahhh!!! help please!! =/ =/ =/
oh wells. so today was band anniversary. their 3 year old ya.. cool! worship was great with them though. started thinking in during the worship. haiz..

oh wells. tomorrow is SUNDAY! and soon it will be the start of school again! argh. gosh =/ i pray that God will lead me through next week and keep me alive! Please please please let me concentrate on my studies too! i need more motivation!! arghh..

2007-08-24T23:44:00.000+08:00

oh gosh. what a week.. yes. yet another week just fly by just like that! argh. EOYs are coming really soon. and i got some of my results back for this term. man IM SO SCREWED! i cant imagine what will they say when they see my report book. argh. everything's just so bad now. i have so many mix feelings im dieing. i have no other motivation to study other than not wanting to retain which i most prob will. =/

argh. today had maths test. yesterday was lit and SS. wow. sucks man! totally blank out for maths today =( think i gonna fail as usual. lit was bad but SS was not that bad. yup. so overall is very bad >:( oh wells. life's still have to go on. i have loads of on hand things now. NOT handling them well at all. havent plan the fellowship outing havent even racky the place! the chimes shirt thing is still not done. studies are like shit. dunno how to help my dearest section. feeling so shit always. personal relationship is a mess. ARGH. this sucks >:(

i pray that i will learn to concentrate better for my studies. argh =/ haiz. nowadays are so loow.. and its always raining so heavily! i used to hate rain like alot. but ah! seriously. playing in the rain is really fun. especially when its heavy! but eeks. after playing in the rain today i feel so sick. oh wells. have to take the consequences ya.. haiz. life is sad.. :(

2007-08-18T23:40:00.001+08:00

woo.. long day today! oh wells. today is Enid's birthday! so shall dedicate this post to her =D

Happy Birthday Enid!!<33 ah! ur 16 now and you can watch NC16! woots! lucky you! hah. wanna tell you that you have been a great friend all this while. was really nice to know you! Thank you for always being there! Thank God for your birth! Being sp and writing letters have been really fun ya =D Continue to stay sweet and nice! May God lead you through all obstacles in your life! God Bless!! lastly. HAPPY SWEEEEET 16!! love you!

2007-08-17T23:51:00.000+08:00

argh! my mood just got spoiled by 3 effing person. fck. i just hate getting beaten. i hate it so much man. ahhh.. >:( spoiled my mood big time. idiotas.

anws. this have been a looong week. no tests.. only getting back all my tests results. sucks big times man! haiz. have been failing quite badly now.. so shit lahh. i found out that im always getting myself into trouble by doing things i like for that period of temporary pleasure =/ ah.. i know its wrong. but i cant help it!! argh, im incorrigible! life is sad! but some things just brightens it up and the next moment it just go way down.. haiz. got into a few troubles this few days =/ shoots man. nowadays.. mood is just sooo wrong.. nothing's going the right way.. but i hope all will be better soon. yup! suffering from my freaking throat and ear infection! my throat is rather swollen now. =/ and today my poor swollen throat got tortured unintentionally by 2 hugs.. ah! was damn painful. cl remedial was hilarious with kaili. but ah! the door slam damn loud and i got rather traumatised. hah. band was rather slack cause i cant play. so started doing librarian stuffs/packed the section/ transpose score! woots. abit bit sense of accomplishment! aft band celebrated TESSA's birthday! <33s =DD

went back home and dropped dead. oh gosh. what a week.

2007-08-11T23:13:00.000+08:00

ah! yesterday was quite a great day! =D Hmm.. went out with annice eeshan and marietta! <33s hahah. we took a hell lot of pictures till my cam died! GOSH cant stand it! my cam is so lan lahh!! -.- haiz.. oh wells. we went to taka to get my stuffs! ehh. hard to find lahh. but hoho! found it thanks to the 3 of them =D then we took a superr long bus trip to ikea!! for our cheeseeeeeecake and meatballs! haha! marietta became the laughing stock yet again! with her choir laughter and all.. oh wells. but we all got damn full so none of us finished our food =/ then we went walking arnd taking loads of pictures!! hahaha. in the end i had to get home earlier cause of mum. oh wells..

today! ah. woke up late as usual.. on saturdays i never got out of bed till 11 i found out.. oh wells. anws.. im rather destressed by this long hol! =D haha.. quite lax now.. went to andrew house for fellowship group thingy damn far alright! bukit gombak! Hmm.. went there ice breakers was his WII video game.. quite cool ah.. but im no video game type lol. so just played the tennis. cool ah! anws.. so we had some sharings! prayer items etc.. i do hope i can manage my time well ah. like so many on hand now. haiz.. oh wells.. =/

tmr will be mugging day!! hav to finish all quek's hw! and all the other hols hw! gosh its not even hols. -.- haiz. oh wells. i do hope tmr the rehearsal will be fine? ahh. haiz.

2007-08-09T22:45:00.000+08:00

ah! today is SINGAPORE'S BIRTHDAY! happy birthday singapore =D

well.. all turned out quite well yesterday ya.. lol.. hmm.. morning had the march pass thingy.. guess band played quite well? =D but ah.. i played wrong note! gosh. haiz. celebrations in school was not bad! the reds hav their cohort shirt.. cool!! anws..so we all slack in the band room for quite long. changed in red.. and took photos! in the end got chased out of the band room as usual.. haiz. so i returned to class. but abit.. aft awhile literally went to class.. no lyrics. so didnt really sing along with the sch. oh wells. aft all the celebrations.. went grace! haha. took loads of pictures with the dears <33 cam whore until err... cam no batt.. gosh. that's the worst of the worst. argh.

hang arnd the sch for some while then went ps to meet JASMINE! =DD haha.. gosh. only if enqi's there too =/ oh wells..walked arnd. haha. lunch at mos! hardly got such free time to meet.. =/ haiz.. so hmm.. aft tt went to meet other pple.. yup! had fun <33 haiz.. have to really cherish the time i have. gosh =/

rch home rather late.. eeks.. oh wells. so the day was really fine. quite good instead =D but the night was horrid.. totally.. argh..

today morning! woke up super early for the church outing. 'family day' they call it.. was er.. rather boring -.- but enqi and jasmine both there! so just makes the day better =D took pictures!! haha.. yup! but we walked a hell lot learning history. diao.. oh wells. rch home abt 1+ then slept all the way. haha! till 5+ pig lahh..

abit.. watched the ndp celebration on tv! think life was better though.. but there is still pros and cons. SINGAPORE TURNED 42!! hahah. old sial.. but rather young compared to other countries? haha. hope the country will be as safe as usual =D

things changed and will never be the same :(

2007-08-07T22:47:00.000+08:00

hmm.. life aint that good these few days.
many unpleasant things happened.
many things changed. =(
haiz. life is sad.
i cant stand the fact that im running after the time.
and ahh! just so many things happened!! >:(

oh wells.. at least its wed tmr! national day soon! HOLIDAYS! yes! finally a long break.. though we still have loads of hw.. haiz. i hope all turn out well tmr. i hope all will go on smoothly.. esp the parade. =/ ohwells..

2007-07-28T23:25:00.000+08:00

its saturday!! erps. hmm.. it hav been a really tiring wk.. mum woke me up and i cld hardly open my eyes! was swelling!! oh gosh.. wat a wk.. argh.. so i slept through the whole morning.. till 12.. went to fetch mum back frm central.. cuz it was raining.. and woots!! she bought kfc for lunch!! argh. felt so deprived.. i havent eat kfc for a really long time!! hah.. came home and started practising.. for an hr. then went to eat half my lunch and continue practising for another hr.. then i finished the lunch. oh wells. was telling my part time maid abt my whole wk.. she was like. wow.. =/ haiz.

so went off for church. went amk hub to buy tickets for movie in the evening. then went church. for rehearsal.. erps.. hmm.. guess it went quite ok.. i think? oh wells.. then met sis at hub for movie!! we watched harry potter!! woots.. finally get to watch it lahh. quite late huh. oh wells.. im glad tt i haven read the bk.. if nt i will be disappointed.. but i think the movie was not bad! =D but ahhH!! the worse thing is.. even when i watch the movie. i was thinking abt my exams on monday!! oh gosh!!!!! >:(

drank loads of water!! so went quite crazy.. again.. then cabbed home with sis. rch-ed home.. and sis told me smth super sick.. but damn funny.. haha.. so for that moment.. i didnt thought abt piano exams. aft i bathed. i went straight to the piano! and prac. and OMGOSH! im still making those mistakes!! why?? AHH!! i cant stand it. =/ if i don pass.. im sure gonna be killed lah! argh. i hav to at least get a pass!! all the hours of practise.. will all pay off on monday. and i seriously am very very very scared!! im going crazy =/ i did smth really bad. to me. its not big. but its bad! argh. oh gosh.

i pray that i will play well on monday. i pray that i will keep calm, and that even if i want to cry. i will not cry in the studio. i really hope that i don fail. teacher once said tt i cld get a merit or distinction! and i really don wanna disappoint her at all. aft all she did to me.. giving me all the extra lessons. bearing with all my horrible playings =/ ahhh!! im really going crazy..

2007-07-27T23:47:00.000+08:00

hmm.. this week hav been quite eventful? erps.. maths test on thurs was screwed quite badly.. today chem and hist. argh. both screwed big time. partly because i didnt feel like studying yesterday.. oh wells.. i deserve it =/ hmm. band was quite ok i guess.. miss sia hav been quite weird? she was ok on tues but she went mad on thurs.. and wth! she wans ruijun to play the choir part! which we don hav the choir score! grr.. oh wells.. gonna transpose it lahh. so hopefully all gonna be settled on tues..

monday was really the best day of my week i guess. haiz.. and in 2 days. im gonna sit for my piano exams!! seriously.. i feel so ...... i dunno how to describe it.. ahh.. im going crazy lahh.. abit i kept going crazy this week.. im really sorry if i scared anyone.. didnt mean to scare you people ya.. just quite mentally unstable these few days.. haiz. guess im in quite a bad state now.. piano exams.. tests.. argh. i feel like going to a very high place.. and just stay there.. =/ ohwells..

tmr. i think someone is getting married in my church.. yup! another time i can witness a couples' wedding. its gonna be the 3rd wedding i gonna attend. erps! that's quite alot arh. oh wells.. i cant believe time passes so fast!! >:(
piano exams in short 2 days!!

2007-07-23T22:58:00.000+08:00

YAY! its 23 JULY!! <33 HOHO! its my 15th year in this world! ok! so today shld be a thanks giving day for me. i shall say my list of thank YOUs!

THANK GOD! for giving me all i have, esp my family and friends!! THANK my parents! for bringing me into this world. esp my mum who gave birth to me at 3am midnight cuz i was too stubborn to come out on the 22nd of july. haha. yes. im really grateful for God giving me all my friends!! a big THANK YOU to: eeshan marietta blanche michelle.tang enid jingwen jiaying tracey faith lijie steph.wee natong sheila becks dawn christine caralyn furrball qimin jessling cassandra my section zhuomin sis xx and all the others!! for making my day in a way or another!! to those who bought me gifts. sorry for taking up your time!! really appreciate all the things i received! <33 yup! so today was a great day!

sch went quite well. other then bio and chinese. abit today got tingxie. and i totally never learn cuz yesterday was just too tired! yes. so im really gonna fail this time rnd cuz i just left ALOT of blanks! oh wells.. and many pple had many probs today >:( argh. so 23 july is nt a very gd day after all.. oh wells.

its 1 more wk to my piano exam! exactly 1 more week! or can i say less than 7 day? ahh! im freaking out!! i really cannot make it! my scales sucks my sight reading sucks my pieces sucks! ah! gosh. damn worried lah >:( i hope i don freak out in the examination room.

oh wells. THANK YOU GOD FOR PUTTING ME INTO THIS WORLD!

2007-07-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

ah! went to ndp rehearsal just now. and yes. it brightened up my day! the journey there was quite irritating though. dad drove we were like late. so as usual all the nags etcetc.. irritating. then rched shaw tower. park etc. then we went down. the whole family is wearing red and we were all looking damn lost! argh. sickening lah! we look like 4 red lost mice -.- so in the end. we still found our way there. to marina bay! and yup we were late. but sis and me were quite glad tt we were late cuz apparently the singer sang super high and we were like O.O to each other. lol.

so ndp was great! the songs etc. the parade was cool. oh ya. we were at the red section! and we had 4 goodie bags.. hah! so yup.. they had the navy thingy! its darn cool!! oh man! the helicopter thingy also super cool! hmm.. and this year the effects were really good! but for all the mps and stuffs.. all simulators lah. wth. even kit chan also fake one? lol. was like quite -.- but all the effects were really good this year!! the water thingthing.. there was the one where they had kids to perform.. oh man! the kids from afar were damn cute!! i like the starfish stingray and seahorse! ahaha.. then there was the jellyfish! is like floating thingy.. duno how to describe! but was really nice!! the effect was great this year!! then they had the kites thingy! was damn nice! really happy that i was there life. ah. there were so many things! of course there was the FIREWORKS! my all time fav!! =D so i was quite high i guess. was screaming! finally. i let out some stress out of me. but not all. definitely. oh wells.

1 more day!

2007-07-21T13:50:00.000+08:00

yesterday, was such a horrid day.
im sorry for making you all worried.
im sorry for putting you all into this mess.
im sorry for not doing a good job.
im sorry for taking you all for granted.
im sorry for making you cry.
im sorry for all the things that i've done.
thank you so much to my friends who were always there for me and so ever caring.

i just hope that things do not get worse on monday.

2007-07-15T22:25:00.000+08:00

its sunday! oh gosh. and tmr will be the start of the sch wk =/ so NOT looking forward for school though i can see nice pple! haiz..

oh wells. yesterday wasted my time at home in the morning.. practised piano.. stone like alot! then we had rehearsal for fellowship! ok.. righto.. im super stiff.. argh... i cant act for gosh sake! hope God will lead me through the whole act.. luckily im just a minor role~ phew! then we went to amk hub for dinner! then off we go home...

today! morning woke up super early. so that the whole family can go to macs opp church for breakfast.. wasnt very pleasant though.. abit no one talked cuz everyone was in bad mood =/ haiz.. then had sunday sch! oh man! the worship was inspiring!! was really touched by the flautist! looking at the gifts God gave her. really motivates me in a way.. yes. so aft the very inspiring worship went opp for rest.. then had service! yes. oh ya! today the worship sessions were special cuz they were lead by the New Heart Ministry. yup!

so aft service! went for lunch and went for piano lessons! oh gosh! master class today!! normal pple.. today is like quite embarrassing? cuz we had to do aural.. the singing part! x_x went abit out of tune but yes.. not tt bad eh.. then we had the playing part. i was super tense but somehow i can calm down. Thank God!! yesh. so teacher said i improved! yay!! =DD really happy.. i do hope i can play better so yesh! i will prac more! xD

oh wells.. so its 1 more wk to me getting old! and 2 more wks to my doom's day! ahh!! time flies!! x_x

2007-07-13T23:52:00.000+08:00

ITS FRIDAY! woots! =D no school tmr! yay! finally restsssss!!

oh wells.. so this wk hav been quite long.. as usual.. argh.. so hav been practising piano more.. and also studying more now.. i finally handed in all my holiday hw! yes. em 27-35 gosh.. thurs was maths test and fri was chem. argh. i screwed both big time! didnt complete chem paper. abit before maths test i broke down. and so throughout the maths test i was like ahh!! gosh. argh. so screwed.. oh wells. at least i know i studied. but. I CANT AFFORD TO FAIL! oh gosh! >:(

so today had picture taking! was damn funny.. we went to the playground! while waiting for our dear photographer. we were like playing some weird cathing game. which lijie calls it [crocodile] or smth. haha. and i fell! ha! was super clumsy la! but dumb ha! oh wells. then we wanted to climb on top of the monkey bar. to take pictures then decided nt to. in the end.. the 6 of us squeezed into this pri sch maze thingy! =D reminds me when i was pri 1.. playing tt thing was superr fun! lol. so we went abit crazy while taking but oh wells. hope the pic end up nice! =D

aft tt.. went back class etc.. then had band! had sectionals first.. so yesh. again i spend sectionals with my own. but lijie came up to accompany me! did warm ups and rhapsody! i lyk the last part of rhapsody! but quite low to rch for me.. so oh wells.. more practise needed. argh. then the sec1s came back. gosh

ahh.. im just a complete failure lah! tryin like shit tryin to teach them but somehow they don get it >:( my english is quite bad eh.. arghhhhh..... i just really hope tt they can understand somehow soon.. cuz they joined the main band already! >:( oh wells. aft band stayed in the band room to talk for awhile. abit. calista is hilarious. lols.

aft band went swimming with sis! 10 laps today! compared to 86 laps in Batam for 3 days but Batam's swimming pool was much smaller.. yup. totally lost my stamina. oh wells. aft swimming we went to the basa malam! =D ate alot lah! gosh.. had cheese tofu! waffle hotdog(corndog lols..)!! turkish kebab! chicken wing! and the chicken chop thingy. luckily i didnt had them alone. lols.. xD was great! but aft all those.. all the swimming just went down the drain..

tmr is sat! i shall start thinking how to manage my time! x_x

2007-07-08T22:21:00.000+08:00

its sunday! =D erps. hav to enjoy the very last day of weekends before sch starts tmr! >:(

oh wells.. yesterday woke up damn late! lol! i woke at 12.38pm.. gosh! was quite shock when i woke up. but i got all the slp i needed =D anws. so afternoon went to aunt's wedding! hmm.. 2nd time for me to see a wedding. 1st was seth tan's wedding.. hav to say.. i think seth tan's wedding album is nicer than aunt's one.. but both were very sweeeet! lols.. anws.. worhips during these occasions are just kinda different in a way.. yup. lols. aft the wedding we went for the tea break thingy. LOL. was damn funny. the other aunt and pple ate like quite alot.. cuz we were all hungry and stuffs and we were nt goin away. haha. cute pple.. oh wells. went to church aft tt.. was supposed to be rehearsal i guess.. but in the end liangwen and zhiren were like wacking damn loudly! the drums and piano.. woots! i love drums! =DD but then.... abit i cant make it. haha. oh wells.. admiring is gd enough! yup.

so today is andrew fellowship's anniversary! n timo fellowship had to present an item.yup so we sang. haha! the practise was damn funny! apparently i went out of tune and everyone start burst out laughing xD opps. was damn embarrassed. but damn funny! hahaha.. jasmine is damn sweeeeeet! she made a pen for us! 100% hand made.. lol.. so aft singing jasmine and me went amk hub.. had to get some stuffs. and also.. buy some dinner.. abit.. we had sushi! hoho. then rushed back.. in case parents finding us. =/

hmm.. today was fine as usual i guess.. just tt jasmine didnt come cuz of her NCC day! and i had to do the OHP. rah.. had agnes there to accompany me though ^_^ aft service went to meet jw.. for the aural book! yay! can prac my aural.. erps. then went with sis to eat FONDUE!! <3333 woots! we had strawberries etcetc!! HOHO! was damn evil but goooood!! wahaha.. but aft the fondue set.. had tummyaches.. guess i didnt had such evil food for a long time eh.. oh wells.. went back home prac piano and do the aural.. gosh. i really think im gonna fail for aural =/ and i abit over exert my wrist. oh wells.. so now. im studying! hope tmr mrs tian don be too fierce! cause its really scary when u sit right at the front and she stares at u with her big eyes.. x_x

2007-07-06T23:20:00.000+08:00

yay! its FRIDAY!! =D so.. days went fine. got murdered by maths test yesterday! was damn shit lahh. but today miss quek brightened my day!! I PASSED MATHS TEST!! woohooo!!! i hope i can pass nxt maths test..but most likely nt. so i shall enjoy the gd mood by this passed test first.. haha..

anws.. classes were fine.. hmm.. hav to say.. this wk feels so long!! and tiring!! every day i slp aft 1.30.. yesterday went for sis's graduation! was damn tired. but went ding tai feng aft tt. love the xiao long bao there! hah.. so went home and prac piano frm 9 to 12!! my wrist is really pain =/ then studied chem-redox. kept falling aslp! haha. so in the end slept at 1.30. lol

so lessons were tiring today.. for el. had to complete the dumb test! some summary! i just kept dozing off. just gonna fail it lah! abit i wrote 180 words when the limit is 150? oh wells. =/ had combine sctn recess with horns! lijie was hilarious. haha..

so anws.. had band aft sch.. lijie they all put the dumb newspaper with my fat face on it lah! stick on the band board somemore! was super embarrassed!! >.< gahh.. so we had sctnals. heh. i went to take my alto to play. lol. but prac my bari too lah.. then we had pumping session! hmm.. right. was tiring. but i deserve it. abit i nv do full pumps! =/ feel super guilty.. rahh.. my wrists hurt rather badly. by carina's knees were much worse! poor girl..

haiz. didnt had much appetite for dinner. so i just prac piano frm 8.30 to 10.30.. and now. thanks to dumb me. my wrist hurt like shit!! oh wells. at least its saturday tomorrow!

2007-07-03T22:24:00.000+08:00

erps! yesterday was youth day! holiday! but nt really eh.. morning went to study at changi airport.. with jingwen cassandra carina jessling. then rushed off for piano lessons! i was late lah! so i took cab for piano lessons. the taxi driver is real nice! cuz his really patient with retarded me.. oh wells.. for piano lessons.. i only got the chance to play 2 scales and my pieces 1 time through.. but i get to talk to my teacher! i was explaining y i was so scared the day before. and she was like dunno she shld be angry with me or nt cuz im cute[yeah right] but exam is so serious. then she started laughing. PUKE MAN cute -.- then she show me and jasmine the passing requirements! im at borderline fail! >:( not even pass! ahhh!! im really scared.. i cant afford to fail! i decided to prac lyk shit! for my PASS!!

haiz. so aft piano lessons.. jas and me went to town! since we need to hav lunch =D the weather is FREAKING hot! blehhs. so we went wisma.. ate ice kachang without kachang.. haha.. was devilish lah! hoho.. oh wells. aft lunch we went shop like for awhile. and i had to rush home =/ got the dumb interview! ARGH!

bloody hell malu-ed myself totally! the interview was weird! and i feel super unnatural. ahh!! i don wan friday to come! i wld be a laughing stock for goodness sake =( oh wells. so my distant cousins came for dinner! and dad cooked loads of stuffs!! was nice!! mum and dad and sis seems to be in a gd mood tt time! lucky me..

alright.. today was tiring and really tiring. now.. sis and dad are both sick! oh dear.. do hope tt they recover soon.. haiz.. anws. morning was suffering frm maths. im freaking worried! i cant fail anymore maths!! =( ohya! jacq came for sch today! yup! her presence was nice =D got one more pple to play with! haha.. so bio was crap. kept falling aslp and im nt the only one! alot pple slept ok! i still kept my eyes open. hah. el was fine.. hell i hate it when a teacher stand right beside ur table and when u look up you can see his super oily face and droplets of water splattering out of his mouth! >.< so i used my book to block saliva. blehs!

aft lunch rushed back for maths remedial. was late lah! wth.. so had to catch up with the stuffs miss quek teaching. was murderous. didnt understand an ant. argh. oh wells. i asked wanjuan to explain. so it wasnt tt bad. at 3.30 went down for band =/ frankly. im really reluctant to go down. argh. had bad headaches so wasnt in gd mood. wats more when i play the bari it vibrates so much tt my head goes cock. grr. so ate one panadol. aft nt long. its combine. so didnt get scolded. lucky. so we played rhapsody and warm ups thingy.. erps. then miss sia went off early..she said tt most prob if go genting rhapsody will be our competition piece? shit lahh! haiz.. so hav to prac for tt piece! head was hurtin real badly.. =/

went home.. and ate dinner. and i started practising piano! i managed to prac for 2 hours!! =D sense of accomplishment. but i really hate my fingers. they are so ever retarded! haiz. i just hope i can pass my piano exams! and my maths and my chem tests!! ahhh!!! that's alot eh.. =/ ohwells..

2007-07-02T00:21:00.001+08:00

today have been a long harsh day.. haiz.. morning had church so aft church jasmine and me went amk hub to walk arnd. ate lunch! then walked arnd again. lol. then we took bus to piano teacher hse. we thought we were late lah! ended up being super early? eeks. we were both super reluctant to go for piano lessons.. so we started playing with the lift.. ha! cuz its a odd lvl serving lift. so we went frm 5 to 7 to 9 to 11 etc.. then went down.. at 3 we went to knock on the door! then we found out tt actually teacher is nt at home -.- then we played with the lift yet again. this time went i pressed 7 it went down! omg lah! so err. i started screaming. hah.. rched grnd floor. the door opened.. and guess wat. the piano teacher walked in!! with the O.O wat u all trying to do face.. haha.. so was damn paisei..

anws.. piano lesson was damn screwed for me! so we started off with AURAL. but nv sing. phew~ only read the notes thingy? damn cheem for me... then.. we started off playing our pieces. OMG la! there were 6 pairs of eyes staring at me! i was seriously freaking out big time!! so 1st 2nd and 3rd piece all screwed! 2nd and 3rd i played too fast and i just kept tripping over notes and over notes. argh. 2nd time i play.. right.. i was lost for the 1st piece! then teacher started telling us abt being lost etcetc.. 2nd was as bad as ever. for the 3rd wah!! even worse.. i was lost!! then i stop. turn to my teacher and smiled and say hehe. im lost >.< then everyone started laughing.. right.. =/ so obviously i know who is the worst player today! argh

night was even worse.. aft such bad piano lessons. dinner out. was like ok... tryin to find a place to eat and stuffs.. back home. stuffs happen.. and mum scolded me lyk shit? and miss quek called. how wonderful eh.. argh. tmr hav chill out in the morning don even know if i can go. wats more i hav piano lessons tmr.. and the dumb interview. =/ hope my eyes aint swollen. crap shit.

2007-06-30T23:24:00.000+08:00

argh. dumb com.. yesterday blog till half crash. ok. so i shall nt bother abt yesterday -.- but yesterday was a long tiring day ya..

so today i overslept! gahh.. n i rushed lyk mad cow outta my hse.. and met the sctn at macs! all flustered.. so yup. the clarinets were there too! hmm. aft sctn breakfast. we went sch for open hse. wth? we juz waited for super long.. haiz. so we played grease doremon big fun and sousa.. this is lyk our first open hse aft pop.. and i hav to say.. its my most tiring open hse.. and also the open hse tt i hav the most complex feelings. guess i will get over all those soon.. gahh.. how irritating life can get. grr.. yesh. so we juz repeating those few songs.. i hate sousa.. super tiring? my fingers are gonna drop lah.. and my whole head vibrates with my instru. argh. so i suffered frm quite bad headaches..

anws.. jingwen and yanzhu came back! so yup. we had section 'lunch'! oh ya.. its jacq's birthday today!! haha.. yupyup.. anws.. for 'lunch' we only lyk drink? haha.. so aft 'lunch' we went back to band room to wait for time to pass.. haha.. listened to jingwen's mp4 and sing to let them guess the song? wth. i seriously think tt im gonna fail my aural big time >.< oh wells.. to think tt i got full marks for my aural when i was grade 3.. LOL. funny and disgusting.. hahaha..

yup. went back to play.. haiz.. then we had a long break.. so just went to talk to cassandra.. cuz apparently wasnt feeling well.. =( was so tired over all the things! shit. anws. so aft all. went lunch real lunch with lijie! xD we went to eat subway! YUMMY! hehe.. but fattening.. aft real lunch. rush home changed and rushed back church thinking tt there was the rehearsal thingy? i was super tired lah! ok. exhausted. >:( in the end. no rehearsal. rahh.. but at least i got the notes for the revision thingy.. so yup. stayed for chimes a while but went back =/ just too tired. haiz.. oh wells. today i can grab more slp! =D

2007-06-28T23:04:00.000+08:00

AHH!! BAD DAY! >:( super tired todayy. hav real bad leg aches and stuffs. etcetc.. i think im getting really old.. so first lesson is bio. WTH LAH? molly leong is really mad? she keep scolding us and say tt she very stress. diao? oh wells. everything went off fine. el lit was super stressful. i think most stressed lesson in the whole day? had to copy lyk mad. and mrs tian got really angry with lijie and eliz? weirdo.

recess.. with shan they all.. haha.. got really sian diao cuz cant photocopy the conductor score. haiz. irritated. but as usual. everything goes on fine. except tt i kept getting choked by the stupid soup! hahah.. dumb.. but the worst has yet to come. ARGH! aft recess found out new sitting arrangment! SUCK BIG TIME! i know im super lan and super dumb. but seth tan don need to put me right in the front!! smack in the middle of the class right? GAHH!! >:( made my whole day go down. i feel so restricted lah!! no eating/slping/talking/using phone/doing random stuffs.. ahh!! my whole load of entertainments gonna leave me! grr.. pissed off..

aft going crazy for quite awhile.. i got back into the class.. so it was cl. and the relief teacher came guess the Xie ls is sick? hah.. the relief teacher is really nice!! and today the whole cl lesson is damit cool! everyone juz speak el =D the teacher damn cool la.. ahha.. yup. so aft cl.. went walkin arnd with nat ong -.- abit she almost get caught by some teacher.. eeks.. and we managed to pon abit of maths! hah.. so aft san-ing xin.. went back to class for maths =/ sitting right at the front IN THE MIDDLE is really no good.. abit miss quek use OHP? then her butt right beside me lah! got damn grossed out. haha.. and somemore the worst is her butt keep pokin me -.- aft tt sheila help me say. heh... so paisei.. PC was fine abit lame.

anws.. today had band! jingwen and jiaying came! <33 gosh.. i dunno how to say. im juz really quite pissed with myself. our dearest zhuer cried!! =/ i think i over pressure u all? im really sorry!! argh.. so. aft sctnals. had combine lahh.. miss sia was there. lijie conducted big fun! she looks super cute lah! haha. and was super entertaining! <33 but miss sia scolded her. argh.. [lijie! you are the best ya? =DD all the way ya? love ya!! <33] righto. but today's alright. cuz miss sia nv bothered abt me! yesha~!! hope it will go on like tt..

gahh.. tmr im gonna start all new. in the front! >:( sux. then pple will see me stretchig. due to all the aches. grr.. sucks......

2007-06-27T23:30:00.000+08:00

yet another day. oh wells. today was really tired like dead tired type.. haha. lijie and faith were equally dead? lols.. yup. we had sex education in the morning lah!! WTH? is dammit sick lahh! as in SERIOUSLY!! why must we hav such thingys.. EWWW.. was grossed out big time. blehs. so it took up our cl time. so i slept half the period left of cl. haha. maths next. rahh.. as usual. miss quek explain super fast. so yup. aft one murderous lesson of maths.. another murderous lesson next up.. CHEM! argh. shit man. got back our paper. super sian diao. expected marks. single digit. which is lyk really low? so my mood went really low. aft surviving chem. its recess! went with annice marietta and shan! <33 made my day.. but err. recess abit the corrupted lah.. hahaha.. as in.. ifelt super corrupted aft recess.LOL. the topic was err....... lols. oh wells. so aft recess we had BIO wahhh.. molly leong ki siao again. keep on staring at me. grr. then was el! lyk yesterday.. did grp work.. 'laughed' at lame jokes.. yup.

aft sch. had 'diet' lunch.. haha. then went back to class for abit of remedial.. bet miss quek is really angry with me now. =/ skipping her remedial twice. haiz. rushed for piano aft 5 mins of remedial.. eeks. piano lessons were HORRID! totally horrible today! so it was a 'merged' lesson.. had 2 other pple tts gonna take exam sn.. same grade.they were nice. but i just cant stand it when i noe there is pple there watching at me play. ahh.. so my pieces esp the 2nd piece was superr horrid. got superr embarrassed lah. =/ teacher was like. ya. ur 2nd piece was really bad. AHH! tian ahh.... argh......

anws. rush back sch aft piano.. i still thought i cld go for maths remedial. abit its already 5++? so in the end. i packed and went down to band room for self-prac.. eeks. i haven even get the conductor score to photo-copy lah! bari was fine today.. but i still get shoulder and neck aches.. but not tt bad for today lah.. oh wells.. i know tt somethings wrong with the instru. but i cant seem to find it. and i will definitely NOT go to miss sia. =/ rah!! hope all turns ok tmr for band. damn worried now. argh. God please help!! >:(

2007-06-26T23:54:00.000+08:00

righto. yet another day passed.. today morning i woke up early! but went back to slp. was so cold and stuffs.. great weather to slp =/ oh wells. so sch was fine? maths was ok.. miss quek just did summary today.. and some drawing of graphs. so i was stable.aft tt had pe lessons! changed teacher to mrs tan mui foong. oo.. nt bad for 1st lesson. did softball. abit.we were all lyk damn sian diao. cuz we nv bat. we only throw the ball and run? was boring.. but tiring still. haha.. aft pe was chinese! the class was spilt into half.. so i changed teacher!! to Xie lao shi. lols.. funny surname. she's nice! cuz i forgot to bring my hol hw. then abit i was prepared to get kick out of class as tts wat chng will do. ohwells. but i was nt! she only say: ok nvm tmr then bring. lol. so through the class we were laughing at our own jokes on her. the ultimate is at the end we are suppose to thank the teacher so we had to say[ xie xie Xie lao shi] hahah.. dumb..

recess! as usual with the dears. <33 abit we nv put back bowls today? n hmm. someone got really pissed.. anws. hah! valery is damn cute and gross. lols. abit she keep playing her straw thingy blowing it. then shan got pissed off so she go clap the straw and it split. so valery cant blow. then she turn the straw over! n started clapping the straw.. cuz she was fascinated by how shan split her straw -.- but she didnt manage to split it. then she turn the straw back over and drink her remaining drink. eeks.

lol. aft recess was bio. wth la. molly leong is crazy. the whole class knows tt. she ARGH. sucks big time. just kept scolding us? mad. aft tt was el! adrian wong is nice. hah.. but he alwaes got trainee teacher attached. this time is a toot-toot teacher. oh gosh. so lessons were fine. but we had to do the UNSW thing. gahh. hate it. crap shit the whole thing. xD who cares..

aft sch.. had lunch and went back to class. and i got freaking tricked by faith and lijie la!! she and her 'swollen toe' her dumbass toe ring gah.. was so embarrassed. lol. anws. aft tt had band =/ so was ok? except tt the alto-ist got chased out. [to ruijun zhuer zd: all the way ya? you all can do it one!!] haiz.. & i really hav to admit tt im really short. i cant play the bari properly la! its lyk if i play straight then i don hav enough strength to carry the bari cuz it will be 2cm++ away frm the floor. then if i put the strap high. i will be leaning back. so now. my shoulder and neck is aching BIG TIME! argh. gosh. so feel lyk dieing =/

haiz. mum complained abt the long hrs in sch again.. gahh. irritating. so was kinda sian diao. went back home had dinner and started playing piano. i tried 6 pieces of sight read and i really suck la! cant read and nt smooth! hope tt i wont fail.. shoots.. my dumb 2nd piece got my fingers and leg confused. cant co-ordinate very well for playing and paddling.. sounds weird. oh wells. tmr hav piano. and aft tt gonna go back sch.. =/

2007-06-25T22:17:00.000+08:00

yup! first day of sch today!! right.. anws.. yesterday night was horrible lah!! cuz it was dammit hot. so i decided to on the dumb fan. so i on. then aft 5 mins it off-ed! i dunno y la!! so i kept slpin and on-ing then slp then on. until i finally gave up.. -.- haha.. so i didnt get much slp la.. thanks to the fan. argh. then in the morning i told my mum the fan spoiled. & she said. so stupid! the fan got timer lah! >:( idiota. lols... dumb.. oh wells..

so i woke up freaking early today.. 5.30 when parents are still slping happily with their fan on! rahh.. so anws.. dad got a hard time to wake up.. haha!! first time man! so i wasnt very early in sch. morning assembly today! =D the best is I PLAYED MY ALTO!! <33 silver jazzie.. hoho.. my dearest sax.. haiz.. missed him soooo much ok.. haiz.. so i tried playin. err.. it feels so... small.. haha.. so i guess morning assembly wasnt tt bad eh.. feels weird without the reds though =/ haiz.

yup. so as usual me and lijie slowly go back to class.. back in class.. seth tan was there! x_x faith they all were err.. blowing bubbles? hahah.. and she gave me one bottle! <33 but when i blow.. the bubbles just attacked me. -.- so no point. haha.. yup.. now is free seating till wed! so currently sitting beside blanche.. at the back somemore can.. gahh.. so much dust!! & tt person got dust allergy.. so the whole day she kept sneezing making my nose feel uneasy.. lols..

CLASSES! first lesson. MATHS. hmm.. was quite stressed la.. mayb cuz its first lesson.. n lyk cuz i missed abit of xtra lessons. so kinda lyk cant catch up? eeks.. oh wells. hope tmr will be better.. but miss quek say tt she's gonna rush us.. cuz she scared cannot finish syllabus. =/
then it was bio.. haha.. i think i used most of my energy for maths.. so i kept falling aslp for bio. in the end i juz slept =D since she juz used her time to scold us.. blehhs.. then lit! wa.. keep falling aslp. hah. blanche even gave up tryin to wake me. oh wells. but i tried to listen! and copy notes! so its fine.

RECESS!! with my dears!! <33 SHAN YONGS MARIETTA MAG MICHELLE and stupid annice didnt come. ohwells. hah.. cute as ever xD & gt updated with some stuffs.. woots!

aft recess. was cl. wth la. got tingxie today and abit i didnt noe? just hope i pass. lol. & chng na mui gonna split our class into 2!! & i hav a strong feeling tt i wld be under her. haiz. then was chem! walao.. sux.. but johnny who was nice. cuz he explain to me abt the redox. hah. so at least i understand abitbit. but i totally catch no ball for mole concept!! argh.. oh wells.

aft sch had lunch then self prac with jessling. haiz. back to bari. i cant hold low d! shit. miss sia still say: [Sls pls check tt all members can hold this note with nice tone.] if i cant do it. i don even hav the right to check la. hell. argh. anws. i tried my big fun and grease n i cant find loads of scores. =/ haiz. so gt tired of bari. heh. so i went to play my silver alto <33 SWAY!!!! hahah.. im tryin to master tt piece <33 just love it soo much!! oh wells.soon i will nt be able to play my silver sax le.. haiz.

so went for piano. gahh. my scales sux. struggling lyk shit for my pieces. =/ teacher say: is either u do very gd or very badly. argh!!! shit la.. grr.. so i promised myself tt im gonna really prac. cuz i don wanna fail.. =( so aft piano. walked arnd those terrace hses.. had to wait for dad for 1hr.. so i walked frm the condo to the terrace hses to nanyang pri. then back. admiring at how rich the pple are there.. and how unglam i wld die if i got bang down by the car. was wondering which way will be the most unglam one. frm the front back or sideways. conclusion is.. all will be super unglam.. esp frm the front. cuz the driver will see ur whole expression etc. eww..

oh wells. tmr hav band =/ i wonder wat will happen.. but i hope i will nt get scolded very badly.. hope miss sia in gd mood tmr.. if nt.. haiz.. im dead. x_x

2007-06-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

eeks. yesh. sch's gonna start tmr! =/ rahhh.. i don feel lyk goin at all(who does?) oh man.. i haven did loads of hws! hah. except for maths.. finished most of it. but still.. nt all la.. cuz i dunno how to do! >:( oh wells.. ok.. its kinda late but still.. shall talk abt the day.

=/ morning woke up at 6.30am! cuz sis need to rch the airport early! awwww... she's leaving to aus! rahh.. super envious. she's gonna play there and im gonna study my ass out in school.. -.- so we went of to airport to check her in.. hah.. then we met her bf then our whole family+her bf go eat breakfast at some food court. haiz. i hate heavy breakfast. so i did had bad stomach aches aft tt.. -.- then we went up.. walk arnd abit. & its time for her to go!! >:( ahhh.... gonna miss her sooo much when she's gone!! no one to irritate.. no one to irritate me.. no one to quarrel with.. and no one to help me when my parents scold/nag me!! and i hav to do the laundry when she's gone.. ahh!! gosh.. tts alot la.. gahh.. topid girl.. so hah. i hugged her real hard before she go in!! <33 lols.. BIG BEAR HUG! i missed those hugs though.. hah.. oh wells.. then we went church tgt.. and throughout the worship. i was lyk msgin her? -.- apparently.. she had some probs. make me worry so much la! idiota. lols. but she's gd nw! she's in melbourne and its winter there! aww man.. so gd eh.. haiz. oh wells. shall go.

2007-06-22T23:06:00.000+08:00

=D today's was a nt bad day!! ha. other than the fact tt i woke up at 7.45 realising tt im gonna be late for job attachment.. lols.. eeks.. so yesh. dad fetched as usual. =/ relying on him always.. haiz.. and i rched there on time! me and karen went in and nt a single soul is there. -.- then aft a while kiwi came! the guy tt is friendly and super tall and built.. eeks. at 10.20 the boss called! dennis.. wa! scary la. he said his gonna rch in 10 mins. so we waited for very long. frm 9 to 10.50..-.- then we gave up so we went to the canteen to get breakfast! ham and cheese! woots.. haha. as we happily walk back. Lay peng and Dennnis was there la! Gosh.. so they let us eat breakfast first.. so we ate. finished. and they let us stone for quite long arh. haha. then they gave us job! my first task is to help dennis to type in those insurance thingys! HA! busybody me get to see other pple particulars.. oh! and i saw his insurance too! for his car! he drives a honda smth.. cant rmb.. lols. oh wells. so tt was wat i was doin mostly.. occupied at the com. then! hell.. i saw the Big boss!! gahh! but his nice.. he smiled and gave me thumbs up.. wonder y.. haha.. but oh wells. he looks lyk he grew older. compared to the pic.

so boss gave us a treat for lunch.. haha! and we in total received 25 bucks today. apparently. dumb me thought it was 5 per day but it was 15 per day.. -.- dumb.. super dumb.. oh wells. so aft lunch went back and start work! err.. did editing on the com again.. then went back and did paper work. filing etc. then finally. we did those invitation cards for Lay peng's 10th year anniversary with AIA.. haha! her customers got free tickets to the harry potter movie at vivo la!! wth.. oh ya!! the kiwi guy gave us strawberries to eat!! wheeeee~~!!! =DDD was craving for it lyk badly la!! YAY! hah.. so anws.. we did O-T.. cuz we juz wanted to hang arnd there.. then aft work.. went vivo candy empire!! bought chocolates <33 hoho.. then went ps to try and repair our dear tuners.. but apparently the uncle say tuners cant be repaired? oh wells. so we gonna get one.. but the stock only comes in 3 mnths time.. ahh.. suay la.. haiz.. oh wells..

so work wasnt tt bad as i thought.. maybe karen and me will be goin back durin dec. ha. dennis say he may rise the pay higher! haha.. oh wells.. tts only if im handling well with my studies -.- tmr's saturday! mugging day!! gonna rush all the undone things. & gonna buy all the owed birthday presents.. haha..

2007-06-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

ah! shall tok abt today. so i nv go for job attachment was feeling uneasy and stuffs. moreover i had bad cramps. gahh -.- i hate woman's best fren. HA. oh wells. so didnt go swim. cuz my sis best fren came. LOL. i woke up at 6 today wanted to do my hw. sat on my bed. took my notebk. n wrote a hell load of stuffs. then went back slp. lols.. i woke at 9 n read the notebk.. and i cant make out wat i was sayin. hahaha.. so anws. i went to do my hw! =DD and managed to do some of it. yay! then i went back to slp again.. haha.. till quite late. then was lyk OMG then started rushing. cooked lunch! instant mee =D nice.. then dad fetched me to sch! yesh.. band!!

so it went fine.. sectionals in classroom. and miss sia walked down the stairs. she heard me clapping! and she juz suddenly came into the room and scolded me! gahh. was dammit shocked =/ she sae no clapping! you think you are more accurate then the metronome? haiz.. gahh.. so i got scolded.. haiz.. i was lyk O.O then okok.. then she walked away.. anws. our sctn lyk alot of things are spoilt? the tuner the metronome. -.- so yup. time to repair them!! yup. so sec1s are still.. hmm. i dunno la. anws.. combine today was abit bad? 3.30 the CO told us to come out. and miss sia wasnt happy. and i hav green thumb now! and my thumb became even more out of shape. ha.. arm still shivering and neck is red. lols. all the weird colours on me.. oh wells. all will turn better. when i hav more prac! yesh! gahh.. ohwells.. but our sctn still need to play louder! =/

okok.. so aft band went off to amk hub to take sis gown for her graduation -.- met her fren haha! tt funny n nice person =D zhen wen.. she became so muscular.. eeks.. hah.. ok.. then took cab to serangoon mrt with sis and went home. bought dinner! WAFFLE =DD nowadays i hav weird cravings! gahh.. i wanna eat.. fondue! nice & delicious chocolates! strawberries! corndog! tut-tut kueh!! AHH!! =/ i hav such strong cravings for them la!! -.- oh wells.. so.. i spent night alone at home! love to be at home alone at night.. at peace with myself.. i can do wateva i wan n no one will noe. except God la.. ha! so it was a nice night!! and i managed to finish maths hws!! i left 14 of them yay!! =D

so sch's re-opening soon. and im sooooooo NOT looking forward for it. BLEHS man!! haiz.. i rmb miss quek say tt i need to turn over a new leaf for the new term.. looking at my state now.. i think its really hard.. hell for me.

2007-06-19T23:42:00.000+08:00

WOOTS! im back =D lols.. err.. abit lazy to talk abt the days.. hmm.. pictures up soon.. and mayb tmr i will post abt the days.. oh wells.. i missed many pple! & im so glad im back.. hmm.. today morning had piano.. was fine. spent 2 hrs playin. gahh.. i cant play scales. and i seriously hate scale =/ so tmr i hav lessons at 7.30am!! before job attachment.. gahh.. don even feel lyk goin for the job.. =( sian diao.. haiz.. so aft piano went for band! so today wasnt tt bad.. oh.. enid and jiaying came back! =DD and jiaying brought the SWAY score!! yay!! ha.. when i play it with the bari they juz kept laughing. cuz i sound damn man. ohwells.. hmm.. i tried to teach yuan lin n i felt damn shi bai.. haiz.. oh wells.. so combine wasnt tt bad.. at least the section wasnt kick out or wat.. but need to play louder! only got scolded by miss sia once. phew~ wasnt tt bad.. so yup! need to prac more and work harder! yesh. and i think i went crazy today.. ha.. i did 50 push ups and sit ups =DD in one go.. lols.. shall go..

2007-06-11T00:11:00.000+08:00

erps.. today's yet another long tiring day. just finished my dumb chinese project which is apparently kinda last minute. gahh.. oh wells.. at least i managed to complete it.. but hopefully can pass arh. lol.

ok. so spent half day in church. since morning till 1.30+? then went shopshop.. for the things we need for camp etc la.. blehs.. rched home late and had to go back to church for the welcoming thingy? ha.. had worship. was err. abit horrible. lols. shant mention y.. but haha.. i kept giggling throughout the worship. opps. ha.. anws. had dinner there. was fine. gahh.. heavy dinner as usual. blehs.. oh wells..

aft tt mum went to change money for our thai trip! gosh =/ in 12 hours time i wld be in batam.. blehs... still nt excited for it.. haiz.. gonna swim everyday day.. gonna be tired =( oh wells. will be goin thailand on fri! will be back on thurs! erps.. anws. i brought lyk loads of snacks to the camp -.- gonna pig out there. ha! one big bag of chocs and sweets. erps.. ahh.. will miss this place. oh wells.. shall get back packing.

bye everyone! <33 will be gone for a wk..

2007-06-09T23:31:00.000+08:00

oh wells. today is full of ups and downs. erps. had to wake up darn early to go swimming with sister.. abit.. 9am! ahh.. oh wells.. we did 12 laps today! waa... accomplished sial.. super tired =/ swimming better make me and sis slim down man! if nt i will be lyk x_x rahh...anws.. went back home aft lunch then had to drag myself out of hse and go church.. ahh.. thought tt it wld be bad todayy. but guess all went fine.. had cell grp thingy today. meet up at amk hub then aft meeting up as a grp we go bishan park! yesh. bishan park.. reminds me of syf period =( when we sometimes go there play swing.. and there is also the place where we did the spastic video.. aww.. miss tt time.. =/ all over.. haiz.. oh wells..

ok.. so we played games! ha.. ehh.. i got brains =D so yesh.. we won! for lyk many games.. ha.. the fox and rabbit game was funny eh.. cuz got comical pple in our grp.. abit.. lol.. so yesh. aft all the tiring games. we went petrol station to buy our reward! chips! drinks! ice cream! hell... there goes all my swimming.. =/ oh wells.. had ruffles lays!! <33 hoho.. gd food.. so aft all the buying.. went up azds hse for more games more sharing and eating! ha.. more pple joined at the hse.. then frm there we split into 3 grps again.. and HA! we played some games. oh wells.. was nt bad.. we managed to auction for JUSTICE PEACE RELIGION KNOWLEDGE FREEDOM DISCIPLINE!! <33 so in total.. we hav the err.. strongest character grp or smth.. ha.. was nt bad. =D yup.. oh wells.. but still got bad things tt happened =( but shall nt mention. argh..

so yesh. had choir. abit la.. was ha. out? lols.. was damn funny.. some pple breaking voice la.. LOL.. was quite a funny time.. ha.. oh gosh.. so yup. today's a pleasant day i guess.. =D hope tmr will be a better day! ha.. but tmr will be the last day i in singapore =/ before i go off for church camp for 4 days. and thailand for 3 days.. AHH..so gonna miss so many pple and things in this small red dot =/

2007-06-08T23:40:00.000+08:00

oh wells.. yesterday was a tiring and bad day.. hmm. today's much better though.. erps. but i cldnt wake up for gosh sake.. =/ had full body aches.. frm all the swimming and stuffs.. hell.. so dad managed to drag me out of the bed. and i walk to his bed and landed there. ha. he was dammit pissed man. opps. oh wells. he helped me rub my bruise on the head again. cuz its kinda hurting my whole head.. oh wells..

so anws.. rush to sch cuz was late. meet up with blanche first. and went class.. abit.. miss quek teaching already la! she almost wanted to call us.. ok.. she called blanche la.. haha..oh wells.. new chap today! -.- haven even catch up with the last chap la.. zz.. so we did maths the whole entire day.. frm 8 to 10.30 then had break! aft break was optional. so left less than 10 pple. but i had to stay arh. for all the hw i owe! erps. so left 3 pple in class at 2. excluding miss quek.. erps. oh wells. aft maths. went down band room did the librarian stuffs. oo.. 3 new scores! erps. lots of sight reading. lucky me. mine is juz lil.. =/

ok.. hav been thinking alot.. and i've got over the taking over bari thingy. so. i vacuum the case and polish the instru today! and i prac ok. -.- tried the rhapsody thingy.. was fine. i think hmm. when im out. i sound lyk i fart.. erps..

argh. to think of it. i will be away for the whole wk! frm this coming mon to the nxt mon!! ahh.. will miss so many things. =/ no mood to go at all. argh.. ohya. i noe who im gonna slp with for church camp in the hotel.. my sis! and shes really excited for the camp. tt she keep telling me to pack my bag for it. but im seriously nt excited!! ahh. =( i cant bear to leave. rahh.. oh wells......

here.. wanna say a big THANK YOU to enid! <33 i will stay strong. try to at least.. thank you for being there for me.. not sure will i be a excellent player. but will try my best. =)

and.. to all the pple out there tt actually cared. thanks loads..

2007-06-07T22:46:00.000+08:00

right.. im some how in some unlucky thingy.. streak or smth.. =/ so anws.. morning had to wake up early to swim with sis.. swam 10 laps ok! was really damn tiring.. but strong sense of accomplishment.. i was lyk lagging behind sis ALOT..=/ and i banged onto some red pants guy. erps. argh.

so rush back home and aunt fetched me to sch.. grr.. hate myself.. seriously.. argh.. so many things happened.. miss sia called me the worst senior in 6 years.. and nw im playing the baritone sax.. cassandra calls it jig cuz its jigantic.. shall juz call it jazzie 2.. oh wells.. my second bf. =/ will really miss the silver sax.. which is so small.. so diff.. i promise.. i will prac as much as possible.. to master tt big thing. =( but i really dunno if i can.. action is harder than words.. and more impt.. argh. i hate myself. so much. juz suck so much ok. seriously. argh

anws. miss sia hates me nw. i dunno how am i gonna led a life in band. she asks me to quit. right. argh.oh wells. brought back jazzie2 aka jig.. was really big ok. =/ so the whole day was kinda horrid.. but got my letter! the only thing to brightened my day.. =/ haiz.. so dragged my bari home. dad fetched. lucky!

rched home.. i juz slept. was reallyreally tired ok. 10 laps and all the playing/crying. argh.. so anws. cooked my own dinner! instant noo.. and cousins came.. tuition frm 8 to 8.30.. and aft tt prac my bari.. for an hour.. waaaa.....got really tired aft tt.. oh wells. its huge. =/ wat to do. i will learn to love it.. argh.

2007-06-06T22:47:00.001+08:00

yesh.. im back posting. so obviously im feeling better.. no worries ya.. so anws.. yesterday was a really mixed up day. hmm.. so went sch in the morning.. was late.. as usual.. then we went faith hse! faith lijie blanche michelle and me.... xD was really fun! hmm.. we watched movie! er.. cant rmb wat show.. but acted by hilary duff and her sis! yupyup..aft movie.. they decided to play with the jacuzzi in faith parents bathroom! was dammit cool la! xDD so anws.. we went to the bath tub thingy.. then we added water.. theres lyk hot water la!! damn coool!! omg... then faith added the foam bath thingy!! but er... she added lyk ALOT.. so ended up.. haha.. the bath tub was over flowing and we cldnt sit on it!! erps.. was really fun.. faith and lijie went siao and they literally sunk their whole body into the jacuzzi thing.. er.. blanche and michelle went mad too.. lucky me.. k.. im nt tryin to be spoil sport.. but theres a stop to things la.. so anws.. i was tryin to get our pinafore dry.. cuz they were stranded on the floor.. so i was literally cleaning up.. ha.. oh wells..

so anws.. faith's maid cooked for us!! thanks alot! lunch was great though i cant rmb wat we ate.. but i rmb it was nice! xD erps.. anws.. so.. i was damn tensed la! we were lyk gonna be late for band! argh.. so i hurried them.. zz. then we rush off.. anws.. i dunno the road.. until i noe.. then ran off.. to the traffic light etc.. didnt even bothered abt my stupid bag.. =/

rushed to the band room.. and yes. i was late yet again. argh! hate myself.. argh.. anws.. i cant really rmb wat happened.. hmm.. so we got combine! and jessling was changed to tenor!! our new tenor player!! dunno izzit a gd thing or nt.. but oh wells.. justin got his new gf! opps.. =/ the worst thing happened.. miss sia played grease.. the saxophone part. im serious tt i didnt play wrong.. =( she scolded.. and wans to go bari! i really don wan.. i really really don wan.. =/ i noe i suck alot.. argh.. really down.. argh. down all the way.. so combine wasnt great.. then aft band.. i was really angry with myself. ran up to class without lijie.. cuz she was slow at the back -.- so i climbed over the class.. think i missed the table.. hit my head on the floor =( have a bump on my head.. and it really hurt alot.. argh.. dumb me. so many things happened aft tt.. but i cant rmb.. grr.. hate myself.. omg.. argh.. bad day.. =/

anws.. had comm meeting.. our very first one! was all fine bahh.. went out for milo and went back class check out some stuffs.. then went amk hub with jessling carina cassandra n jnrs.. to meet enid and jingwen.. then bought dinner and went off to hcjc.. erps.. so the concert was fine.. preferred vjc one though.. but ARGH!!!! seems lyk all the saxophonist are all dammit pro =/ i really wan to be lyk them!! argh.. oh wells.. i cant eh.. im a sucky player tts gonna be demoted to bari.. =/

so aft the concert.. took picture with shueli! then ya.. we went off home.. took bus.. 74.. yupyup.. slept on the bus.. argh.. head hurt so badly. =/ then dropped off at amk hub. and was fetched home by dad.. yesh.. told him the truth and got badly scolded.. argh.. rched home.. and ended being scolded by all. oh wells.. i deserve it.. bathed and slept early..

today! my bump is gone! yay! my head still hurt though.. =/ and my neck too! argh.. i fell on my right side of the head.. but seems lyk my left side of the head hurts too.. and my whole neck is lyk breaking =/ argh.. hate it.. soo much.. anws..was called for 11 time arh. cuz i nv go sch for maths.. erps.. juz had a whole day of rest.. ate alot.. opps.. was hungry.. =/ had 2 pieces of cheese cake! <33 then i fried 1 egg and 2 hotdog.. opps. anws.. then i juz slept with a bag of ice on my head.. for half the day.. =/ supposed to do my maths.. erps. oh wells.. so whole day juz lyk tt.. till 6+ dad came back and brought me and mum to some place to repair our poor family car.. meanwhile mum brought me to see my mp3.. erps.. nw i don even noe which one im getting la! =(

anws.. aft all.. went suntec.. carefour! as usual.. nt allowed to buy many things.. but managed to buy 1 red fbt! =DD the only thing tt brightened up my day.. ohwells.. then dad bought ice cream for me and sis.. vanilla~ xD anws.. then off we go home.. oh ya.. dad and mum were playing with the standing iron thing la! wth.. i was lyk !!!! omg.. ha.. they can be quite funny sometimes. erps. ohwells. tmr morning goin for swimming with sis.. and aft tt hav band!! ahhhh... im damn scared.. omgosh..i hope i don change to bari.. i really don wanna leave my silver jazzie!! ahh.. argh..

2007-06-04T23:14:00.000+08:00

erps! so anws.. as expected.. i was late for class today... met blanche at canteen and bought a bottle of water.. lol.. anws.. first lesson! MATHS! argh.. was lyk O.O cuz new topic.. nt even in the textbk!! kinematics.. ha.. so i tried to catch up with miss quek.. n keep myself wide awake.. don really understand the thingys.. but oh wells.. i was paying attention.. so miss quek praised me! xD yay!! haha.. brightened up my day.. but then....... she gave lots of hw la! zz... haiz.. and she let us off late cuz many of us were late.. so yup..

break at canteen.. with blanche and michelle.. erps.. we juz slowly eat etc.. in the end we were late for lessons -.- rushed back to class.. and slowly walked for lit.. haha.. opps.. lit at primary ava! waa... super boring la!! >.< cant stand it.. but mrs tian's real nice!! so yup.. anws.. lessons ended at abt 1.40++

decided to go with blanche and study.. with her fren.. supposed to go bishan library.. so we went amk hub do my card then went bishan meet her fren then macs to eat HAPPY MEAL! xD got my dronkey.. so cute!! anws.. then went library and found out tt it was filled with pple.. so decided to go all the way back sch -.- so went to amk hub collect my card and took bus back sch.. wa..... long journey =/

class was locked so as usual i climbed in and unlock it! xD anws.. stayed till 6 to copy all the notes of maths la!! and yay!!! *sense of accomplishment* I MANAGED TO COMPLETE ONE CHAP!! yay!! so im 2 chaps behind the class only.. ohwells.. =D

went vivo juz nw.. argh.. dragged there.. unpleasant things happened.. grr.. and sis bought her converse shoes!! yup.. gd for her.. ohwells.. tmr hav band =/ worried sial.. haiz..

2007-06-03T22:53:00.000+08:00

brr.. fell sick again.. argh.. super disgusted by myself today. shall nt mention it.. erps.. anws. morning as usual.. sis led the morning worship! thought tt its inspiring.. =D was a great job done eh.. haha.. lessons were fine.. felt abit uneasy here and there.. =/ oh wells.. jasmine gave me a big egg! inside filled with marshmallows! pooh ones!! <33 was damn cutesy!! the container still got the pooh pic.. hoho.. frm china. lol. anws.. im racist to china pple. opps.. =/ and my cousin's wife-to-be is a china! argh.. guess i hav to change my perception eh.. oh wells.. hope all goes fine..

anws.. dad really love to sing man.. argh.. cant stand it la.. he sings damn loud -.- brr.. and got vibrato.. oh wells.. he can sing.. brr.. cold.. anws.. aft service went lunch with sis and her bf! <33 HAHA.. got treat again.. woots! pepper lunch and yong tau fu at bishan there.. then movie!! SHREK 3! <33 i love the baby ogres.. damn cute! and the dronkeys.. haha.. ok.. so the movie was nt bad.. but argh.. we watched with loads of kids la! >.< haiz.. through the movie got one small kid keep kicking my seat.. argh.. and the kids beside me topple their drinks and popcorn.. wonderful.. haiz.. anws.. got one part of the conversation.. was damn funny!! but its abit hard to understand for the kids.. and i dunno wat happened to all their parents.. so ended up me and sis laughed damn loudly only.. -.- haha.. anws.. the show is not bad!! so can go watch.. haha.. the baby ogres burps and farts haha!! damn funny.. opps..

anws.. went home and dropped dead.. till dinner.. which was BLEH totally.. got my fav curry! but it was lyk yucks.. =/ felt lyk vomitting aft tt.. went to shower and go take pic for my ez-link card turned out quite bleh.. then went home and bathed! and end up puking my dinner =( argh....... i hate falling sick at this time.. its hols for gosh sake.. grr.. hateithateithateit.. tmr theres extra lessons.. ahh!! jiu ming ahh.. dunno how am i gonna survive through LIT and MATHS! x_x nv even do lit hw.. haiz..

2007-06-02T23:24:00.000+08:00

yupyup! its the fellowship's 25th anniversary!! yup.. so woke up at 10.30am and changed and wait for lots of pple came to my house.. erps. so slowly pple flowed in.. manymany... erps.. so i helped cutting the faces! while some go baked cookies.. yupyup.. so time flyflyfly.. then go church! was late.. ya.. then got chime/choir.. did singing! wth.. cant sing la.. lols.. went out of tune.. voice break LOL! how embarassing.. anws.. many pple came back!! JASMINE XJ and ZHUOMIN! yupyup.. <33

ohya!! ok.. here wanna THANK our dear senior JINGWEN for making the very nice section video!!! hahaha.. cuz of tt her com keep crashing.. LOL!! poor thing.. so anws.. thank you!! <33 haha.. and i found out i changed frm sec1 eh.. =/

oh wells.. nowadays quite troubled eh.. =/ slept at 5am on wed and thurs.. and yesterday finally can fall aslp.. slept at 3am.. haiz.. dumb eh.. ha.. anws.. pictures time!!

lijie and her 'unglam-ness'

haha.. as u can see many long over-dued ones.. but still.. pretty pictures are worth the wait =DD

2007-06-01T22:34:00.000+08:00

erps.. ok.. currently in some weird conver. brr.. anws.. shall not post abt yesterday cuz its gonna be a long post. ha!

anws.. today hav been a long day =/ morning packed abit.. etcetc. had breakfast! supposed to go meji warehouse with mum.. but didnt.. went sch!! =DD yay!! was damn happy.. so rushed there.. forgetting lots of things.. but nuh. managed to rush there at 1.30pm ok! -sense of accomplishment- hehe.. anws.. yay! played my dear jazzie!! <333333 beloved instru.. didnt noe i wld miss it so much eh.. lols.. anws.. prac some songs today! lyk grease.. abit.. and sway.. ha! love tt song!! oh boy.. =/ no score though.. hmm.. anws.. played tt song for quite long la.. tryin to figure it out.. then went over to the jnrs and slack.. haha.. singing songs etc.. aft tt juz lie on the bench.. dead there.. stupid gastric acted up.. =/ OHYA!! i shitted first time in 5 days today morning! but tt is the only time i shitted.. now im back to diarreoh.. horrible.. zzz.. anws.. I LOVE THE SAXES SECTION!! <33 random.. haha. anws.. so he sexy saxes except jacq =/ went newyork newyork!! YESH! lyk finally!! and we got the nicenice sit!! <33 the carcar seat? ya! haha.. but the dinner was damn huge! -.- abit jiaying jingwen and jessling keep suan-ing me la.. zzz.. but im fine.. cuz i ignored them! ha! pro me.. anws.. jiaying went high again! lol! was quite funny.. yup.. dinner was nice! aft dinner went off walking arnd.. abit i carry justin.. his heavy man! but ok la.. jazzie is the best <33

haiz.. ok.. was high.. now not anymore.. =/ anws.. so the section walked quite long!! all over.. amk hub -.- then ntuc!! make fun of ruijun with barneyy!! lol! cute arh.. anws.. then we went home! jingwen and ruijun left first.. followed by jessling.. then 136 came! but me and zhuer decided to wait for jiaying! ha! =D anws.. so ya.. we stood there and tok for quite long.. then jiaying left.. 136 took really long to come u noe! >:( but me and zhuer had a good talk =) yup.. then FINALLY our 136 came.. haha.. yup.. so hav been a really long day bahh.. oh wells..

2007-05-30T21:52:00.000+08:00

erps.. ohwells.. feeling better today! thanks all <33 hmm.. no more fever no more vomit.. but still got lao sai. argh.. i guess i cant get well that fast arh.. but all shld be well soon! yupyup.. so arnd afternoon.. sis bf came.. brought food! so had those for brunch.. yup.. but haiz.. shldnt hav ate.. cuz they were kinda oily.. then aft brunch.. mum, sis, sis bf, and me went vivo!! yah.. juz got well and thought i could go shopshop arh.. dumbass me..

anws.. trip there was long. so mum and me both headache when rch there.. first stop! the toilet.. opps.. ya.. ls-ed there.. and mum felt lyk puking! =/ juz rched there lehh.. haiz.. then we went to tangs! bought stuffs for house warming tmr.. oh wells.. anws.. then went up to daiso.. cuz mum's nt feeling well and she wanna go home.. so ya.. went up daiso.. and sis bf went off.. then i went walk arnd by myself.. and aft one round i went out and found out tt mum puked!! erps! was lyk O.O!!!! ok... so ya.. erps.. so went all the way down to candy empire! supposed to go mrt.. but i wanted to go in =D then mum bought coooookies! haha.. nt my fav.. but oh wells.. who cares.. then me and sis sent her off! =/

then aft sending mum off.. i went to toilet yet again! argh.. stomach pain sial~ grr.. anws.. ha. went walking arnd. OH! saw an orange lambo!! hahaha.. was quite pretty.. but i will nv go crazy over it.. so oh wells.. saw many pple taking picture with it. HA! hmm. then walkwalkwalk.. cousin joined us.. etc. anws. i owe sis $$ nw!! cuz i promised to pay half price for her new bag! which is nice =D haha.. anws.. ya.. so went back home!

zubz.. had dinner then tuition.. as blur as usual.. but at least i noe more arh! haha.. understand more i mean.. ok.. hmm.. crapping. shall end here..

2007-05-29T21:48:00.000+08:00

oh wells.. shall post abt these days.. hmm.. quite bad arhh.. sunday felt quite sick.. morning forgot abt enqi birthday present.. so rushed back home aft sunday sch to get it.. rush back church finding out tt everythings over.. -.- but lucky shes nt gone.. aft tt went back home.. zzz.. started doin maths! yupp! and miss quek called up.. again. eeks.. oh wells.. shes quite nice la.. cant really rmb wat happened on sunday.. oh wells..

monday! morning woke up late.. but still made it in time for piano lessons.. ha.. felt accomplished cuz i took bus myself all the way for piano lessons! yay! ha.. but my back ached lyk i dunno wat.. seriously dieing la.. x_x so was quite sickly then.. didnt do my theory. slept through it.. was too tired arh. anws.. took bus back home myself.. but before tt went amk hub to collect my pinafore!lols. then got back home. waa... both me and sis fell damn ill.. =/ since morning started ls-ing quite badly.. back ached lyk nobody's business.. argh.. so i slept.. was so ill.. =( anws.. in the afternoon mum came back.. and called both me and sis up to make passport.. she wanted us to take bus la! i was so x_x tt i didnt reply her.. sis said some stuffs.. then she decided to fetch us there.. opps.. abit there really no place to park? we waited for more than 30 mins la! was dieing alright.. so finally aft much praying.. we manage to get a parking lot! phew~ so went up.. and waited more than an hour la!! zzz.. me and sis both so sick there.. we were lyk the only ones wearing jacket? cuz the place was damn hot.. but both of us thought tt it was damn cold there.. finally our turn! omg la.. i wanted to puke so much! when its my turn.. i literally puked.. but nt out.. i rush my way to the baby room or wat.. eeks.. i bet i scared many pple there arh.. =/ haha.. oh wells.. my passport turned out ok.. i guess..

anws.. rch home.. and slept all the way. ate medicine througout.. dunno how many dose of panadol ok.. ate medicine etc.. so slept all the way till tues! abit 4am wake up and puke -.- zzz.. oh wells.. had lots of sleep.. but fever nt really gone yet.. oh wells.. guess it cant go away so fast ahh.. shall end here =(

2007-05-29T21:45:00.000+08:00

opps. this p.o.p post is kinda late arh.. =/ oh wells.. shall still post. eeks.

oh wells.. time flies.. POP is over.. =( will really miss the reds lotss. now there is no more orange.. only yellows.. mayb blue? dunno? sobs.. now tt reds are gone.. its yellows turn to lead.. argh.. really scared..

argh.. im not gd at expressing myself.. but i have to say tt this pop is the mostmostmost memorable pop ever =/ the reds rocked! so anws. morning dragged bags of presents etc to sch. erps. so darn malu.. but its all worth while. the day was horrid i must say. so many teachers came up to me and toked. oh wells.. was almost late for pop! lucky sial~

anws.. POP was sad.. really sad.. =/ first we waited for miss sia to come.. and can u believe it? MISS SIA CAME FOR POP!! OMG.. this shows how impt reds is to miss sia.. i really do hope tt yellows will be fine? argh.. band wld be weird without the reds.. will be so very weird.. =( i dunno how will it be like.. so anws.. we fall in the very last time as a squad.. by pamela our SC! ok. so slowly.. pple fall out etc.. some very shocking ones some very expected ones. shall nt specify.. anws.. finally was the drawing time for sec 4s! wa...... i got mostouche and all the weird things. =( really sad.. cuz its the very last time to be uglified by the sec4s.. time juz go so fast.. i cant stand it. =/ really really sad.. argh.. so soon.. now tt we gonna lead.. i dunno wat things will be.. cant even imagine.. aft all the drawings.. its followed by all the hugs and pictures.. with many pple =/ will miss all of the reds.. lots.. i wanna thank sooo many pple.. for all they've done.. argh..

so aft all.. we went to band room set up and went out to the track and played.. erps.. shrek was abit screwed.. but hopefully grease was better? Grace was great for the first time! Our new student conductor!! So anws.. it was the reds time!! They played phantom and concerto!!!! <3333 concerto….. awww….. was great!! Ha.. esp the sexy saxes section.. then aft all the playing time to go canteen to exchange presents.. =( the feeling is no gd at all.. argh..

ok.. then the saxes section went to amk hub for dinner.. wanted to go changi but sec1s cant make it.. so oh wells.. dinner was kinda bad.. but at least we get to bond. Cabbed to chalet!! Aww.. chalet was fun.. ha. The blues were soooo emo. for dunno wat reasons.. oh wells.. wat to do? Tried our best to cheer them up.. but nth worked cuz apparently they were so glued.. the best part was tt jiatying got damn high!! HAAHAAHA!! First ever time I’ve seen her so high la!! Abit!!! Was damn funny.. cuz of jacq’s contagious laugh.. haha.. then we ate cup noodles.. but somehow cant finish even 1/3 of it.. so erps.. then we tok etcetc.. then we watched step up! Apparently many of them watched it and they all knocked out except me.. haha.. so yup.. I stayed up whole night. Lol! Jacq snores really loud and jw and jiaying’s breath are high pitched.. all the others juz breathe loudly.. hahha.. was funny. But I juz cldnt slp.. oh wells. Oh ya!! Jiaying kicked me.. lolls!! I thought she called me la.. abit she was slpin -.- zzzz.. we were supposed to wake up to watch sunrise.. in the end everyone was so relunctant to wake up.. so we pigged in the chalet…. Haha.. in the morning managed to grab some slp.. =D oh the horns joined us!! Forgot to sae.. we booked the same place for chalet! So fun!! Had free food too.. haha.. erps. Became quite high.. but err.. abit I was the only one high.. tryin to make all the others more high -.- zzzz.. oh wells. No one went high.. lols.. so we cam whored etc.. then checked out n went for luch at kopitiam! Erps.. ha.. food was err… weird.. so anws.. we cabbed back n went home! Ahh.. then jw became very suay having all the incidents.. opps.. partly my fault cuz I went home and overslept!! Ahh… then I rushed out. Ha.. so section took neo print!! <33 sweet us!

Then cabbed to vjc! Haha.. on the way there was damn funny… we were supposed to make the dare.. for each other.. omg.. we juz kept laughin lyk mad la.. I bet the uncle was pissed.. but who cares~ we had fun.. rched vj.. sat down.. wth.. my dare was lyk -.- grr.. irritating.. lols.. so I nv do~ ha.. was abit overboard arh~ topids.. so anws.. we lost our incredible! But found it aft tt.. lolls.. was super funny la.. snrs were childish.. towards the last part of the concert.. jw passed down a very very sad msg.. and in the end.. THE ENTIRE SECTION CRIED!! x_x and guess wat.. I was sobbing so hard tt the person at the back of us were laughing at me.. ahh.. malu sia~ topid.topidtopidtopid,, ruijun cried the worse.. aw… so anws.. we came out.. ahh.. then jiaying ruijun and me started cryin badly again!! Ruijun’s cry is contagious.. erps..

Will really miss the reds.. so ever much. =( so pop ended so called at vjc.. argh.. so some of us took a bus back! Hmm.. if im right there were.. peiting yanzhu jingwen jiaying enid jessling carina Cassandra valery and me! Hope I nv missed out anyone =/ erps.. but bus ride back was fine.. so anws.. cabbed back home.. and rched abt 12.. tts abt the whole pop =( haiz.. time flies.. now that the reds are gone.. cant imagine wat band life will be.. will really miss them badly..

2007-05-21T23:24:00.000+08:00

time is flying so fast lyk nobody's business!! im dieing!! AHH!! pop is in lyk 3 days? SO FAST!! HAVEN FINISH MY PRESENTS YET!! getting so stressed out.. and many things happened.. filled with mixture of feelings.. argh.. jiu ming ahH!!!! >:( i cant live with this much longer.. showed eileen my list of things to do.. and she was lyk WA! ya.. wa!! sian.. will be spending my time in sewing room man.. =/

2007-05-20T22:03:00.000+08:00

=/ band camp finally over.. was screwed.. really sorry to the red badges cuz tts their last band camp and it turn out.. haiz. ya.. so anws.. right aft sch ends. went to help jessling collect the toilet buckets and the booklet!! omg. booklet not even done! so we started rushing lyk mad.. cutting the booklet. at first with penknife.. then miss lai lend us her paper cutter! so i was the 'pusher' was tiring.. but partly fun.. in a way. the blue badges help too! thanks blue badges! anws. so managed to rushed everything asap bah.. so by 4.45 the camp started? erps. i did a very impromto briefing and was damn lan. =/ sians. ya. so aft tt rushed to prepare night games! yupyup! so me n lijie supposed to be dolls, etcetc. yup.. so changed and was dinner.. erps! was damn scared ok. argh. nomnomnoms.. haiz.. pizza was small. i think order wrong. haiz. so anws. section dinner! took section picture! ..hmm. ya.. so anws.. gave/received presents.. then went to set up etc. n ended up in music room as tt was our holding rm! RAHH! was damn scared.. then erm.. had gastric =/ hurt lots. argh. felt totally weird arh! anws. hugged etc. was sweet! squad was kinda bonded? ya! then finally was my turn! so tessa claudia and me hugged before goin down. scary sial..

was panicky.. all was fine except the qns la.. screwed it up big time =( oh wells.. playing was nt fine too.. argh.. screwed.. but luckily everythings over.. phew~ yupyup.. so argh! started puking in the mids of other pple's turn. =/ shit me la.. grr.. had panadol.. anws. aft all.. was night games! yeah! hope it was fine.. esp the last station.. though many of us got injured.. erps. so anws.. aft all. we had night movie.. etc. i was in the movie room. had a game of majong! HA! i won! er... then we got abit sian. so we started talking. all the way to 5.. abit.. nv slp. was too cold.. was dieing la.. so ya.. keep getting called up.. by random pple. lols. so ya. luckily caught abit slp in the morning. so breakfast was ok? then had conducting! waa.. was so scared. jiaying solo was GREAT!! <33 shes really gd! ha. so yupp. we played some random songs too. then had basketball. er. felt lyk funiture la. >.< so camp ended quite badly? then aft debrief had long tok with reds. as in yellows and reds. ya. so tts all for band camp.

2007-05-17T23:01:00.000+08:00

yup! sch was BLEH can.. mood swings drived me mad.. =/ oh wells.. poor eileen.. erps. so anw. morning was bad. both me and blanche had bad stomach ache and had to rush to toilet to shit.. oh wells.. then was all the weird lessons.. bzz..... was super sian.. cl was err.. weird. pe was fine.. ha.. we lost! 2-10 lols.. quite bad eh. haha.. heck.. i hope we can play some other games.. cuz frissbee is getting abit boring.. recess with <33s!!! SHAN MAG YONGS MICHELLE.L! marietta went for choir =/ but nvm. ha! heed shan advice and ate alot.. more than usual arh.. hokkien mee and mango smoothie.. woots.. erps. shan says eat more then can lose weight. so im gonna do tt! =D

anws. took some pics in shan class! =D haven had time to upload all the pics.. so oh wells.. they can wait. erps.. ha.. el lessons were fine.. chem SUCK. I HATE CHEM.. omg.. worst worst worst subject! gosh. =/ sux.. got back the ppr result for chem. n it was horrendous. totally. brought my whole day downdowndown. I HATE CHEMISTRY! >:(

assembly was nt bad.. spent time playing and laughing. ha. and a bloody prefect came to scold us =/ cuz we nv bring paper and pen and we were nt listening? -.- then her class pple turn back and tell us tt she was irritatin! and shes nt nice! erps. how sad eh. haiz. who tell her.. blehs..

aft sch was damn worried. had to rush lyk mad.. etcetc.. so im really sorry.. cuz i was damn gan chiong and stuffs? cabbed with lijie carina and jessling to concourse meet cassandra.. YUP! we bought stuffs! omg. <33 all of u! ha! but erps. bad things alwaes happens tgt. my ahems came! and i bet im gonna suffer big time tmr =/ oh wells. hope everything is fine tmr.. ESP NIGHT GAMES! although im still nt super sure wat to do. erps =/ but.. WE CAN DO IT! and OMG! tmr is noms!! JIA YOU PPLE!!

2007-05-16T21:27:00.000+08:00

=/ gosh.. today is a full of mixture of feelings day.. haiz.. morning drills was fine.. commanded stupidly.. then blanche gave me cake =D so was happy! so i went high all the way. cuz me and eileen kept eating.. lols.. 4 packs of choco biscuit before tt topid fire alarm rang.. abit many of our class pple scream? -.- bzz.. haha. i was laughing my head off.. seeing at them get crazy. so was a fine time then.. recess with marietta and yongs! <33 erps.. marietta is damn sick.. gross.. anws.. then everything was fine la.. el lessons are the best! mr adrian wong super nice! let us go library! so me and blanche started playing at our little maze! =D running lyk mad.. and scaring sheila and huishan. cuz they went in to play to. HA. yup. so el lessons was fun! abit topid caralyn saying akon then i OOO smack that! then started singing without realising tt mr a.wong at the back! then he say smack wat smack la! then he smack my head =/ topid!! yesterday in staff room he hit my head with his paper also loo.. anws.. so aft sch got our very last chill-out =/ how sad arh.. the chill out pple are: jingwen, cassandra, carina, jessling and me! <33

oh wells.. haiz. noms is in 2 days.. so is night games.. and im bloody hell freaking out for both? night games is so very screwed.. i dunno wat to do seriously.. tmr is the last day? and we haven do anythin yet la!! wth? im currently doin the proposal.. =/ oh wells.. really hope everything turns out fine.. pray hard.. =(

anws.. aft chill out went back class.. got miss quek there can =/ zz.. heck.. nv go for maths remedial.. bad stuffs happened.. anws.. then left lijie steph faith and me in class only.. so walked them out.. cuz uncle chased us out of class.. so ya. they went home.. and i climbed back to class.. cuz uncle locked it.. touch up on the proposal.. and went home abt 6+ haiz. anws.. home is so bleh.. got our new fridge.. abit we hav to compact stuffs frm 2 fridge into 1 big fridge? seriously.. my hse is a total mess. esp the fridge. cant even find the things i wan can? super irritating la.. and my family pple nt in gd mood.. and they cant see tt same here? don expect me to hang a sign board over me and say. hello im in a really bad mood so could you kindly NOT tok or nag at me? ok.. tts rude.. ARGH. hate it. =/

2007-05-15T23:16:00.000+08:00

OH YA!! before i forget. i found out smth!! RED AND YELLOW MAKES A MARVELLOUS COLOUR!! ORANGE!! <333 awww... means tt reds and yellows are great!!! ha!

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2007-05-15T22:45:00.000+08:00

OOO!! i think today is a sunny day! <33 anws.. morning had drills.. but it rained =/ i aint late ok! but er... hate today's drills cuz my hair keep 'flying' ha. so anws. back to class.. saw dumbass seth tan.. grr.. hate him.. yucks.. disgusting baised ass...... BLEH! blanche was in a nt so gd mood but oh wells.. she was kinda late to sch =( and she scared the hell out of me? cuz morning me and lijie was still discussing for nite games and ya.. bad things happened.. anws.. hist lessons was boring~ seth tan told a damn lame joke and no one laughed except for he himself -.- damn lame can? and cuz of tt me and blanche started bursting out laughing lyk mad! LOL! and out of 9 markers none of it worked!! HA!!! he cant teach.. then it became so boring tt i juz had to slp.. so erps. i drooled =/ 10 pgs. ha. eee.. hehe.. aft tt was elit. WA LAO EH!! SUX LA! >:( i got E8 for ppr.. damn sad... failed my test.. pissed with myself.. argh.. mrs tian gonna tell me drop la.. noooooooooo!!! =/ badbadbadbad.. then was maths.. erps.. slack as usual.. steph was rather slpy todae.. so miss quek keep calling her! ha! lucky nt me sial~ phew~

recess! with lijie and cassandra.. yupyup! discuss night games.. bleh. we are damn screwed ok? we dunno no nth.. no money. =/ its so screwed.. i feel really bad.. its lyk the sec3s plan but its really very screwed.. the whole camp.. im really sorry =( arghhh... sobs.. and our comm haven hand in the proposal up yet.. we hav so much to change can? ahh.. jiu ming ah.. anws.. there will be loads of pple goin for this camp.. 23 reds 25 yellows 27 blues 41 greens and 3 teachers( but the food muz count 4 teachers cuz cher eats 2 person meal) haiz yoyo.. so many pple =/ big camp.. really hope tt everything will run well.. esp night games..

anws.. aft recess we had bio! HA! bio lab was damn fun can! me and blanche juz keep cam-whoring hehehe.. xD took super spastic pictures!! <33 lols.. and got one blanche edit until we look lyk we were in submarines! lols.. hahaha.. so lame -.- anws.. ya! and we played with test tubes etcetc.. all the amylase and stuffs hoho! funfunfun.. cl was fine.. passed my tests and compo phew man! if nt mum gonna slaughter me =/ oh wells. OH YA! I PASSED MY EL OVERALL! phew~ B4. lucky man.. haiz.. but its still quite bad arh.. sobs.. but the marks deducted for my tests and compo is damn lame.. all wrong words =/ grr.. haiz.. anws.. had to rush my cl graded thingy durin maths lessons.. so miss quek keep scolding me.. but i don understand wat tokin she! oh wells.. some circle thing? radius? or wat? ha. anws.. aft sch.. we had our workshop! err.. kinda lame? but was quite fun.. so we went off durin the break. hehe.. blanche michelle lijie steph faith and me!! <33 you all!! we totally rocked. ha!

anws.. yup! rushed to the canteen incase get caught or wat? kiasu lijie haha.. run lyk mad cow can? -.- had orange bowl for lunch! =D then aft tokin there.. we went off to collect _____ YUCKS CAN! i kept asking cuz apparently i kept being pushed to the front? damn gross.. seriously.. >.< eeew! haha.. anws.. aft collecting ___ we went to macs!! lols.. while waiting for our food.. me and blanche took spastic photos again.. damn funny can!! xDD hehehe.. then had grp pic! awww.. sweeeet! yupyup! then we went off.. lijie faith steph and me went back class took stuffs.. n waited at father barre for my dad.. faith mum fetched. so dad fetched lijie and steph to amk mrt. ha. they were lyk damn high la! waving to pple lyk mad cow.. hahaha! but overall was damn fun spending non- band time with them.. <33 you guys..

oh! zhoumin sent cookies and a letter from hongkong!! <33 sweeeet! and granny came back frm china! n she cooked dinner.. lols.. anws.. tmr hav SS test.. hope i pass.. haiz.. anws.. the rest of the days shall be used to plan night games! abit i haven do my pop presents yet =( i think the presents will sure turn out bad.. sorry pple.. oh wells.

2007-05-14T22:58:00.000+08:00

JIU MING AH!! my pimple is lyk coming out frm everywhere!! evilness pertruding out of my face!! my nose gonna hav a big one =( ugly me.... sobsobsobs..

damn sian today? morning had morning assembly.. aww.. last one we gonna hav with the reds i guess? or one more? =( oh wells.. aft tt went to toilet and shit with lijie.. went quite long.. hehe.. went back to class and seth tan was lyk y u all take so long? -.- i sae i went to shit.. lols.. he gave th o.O face la.. lols.. irritating.. anws.. zhuang abit sot today.. her bad hair day.. so she very bad mood.. oh wells.. wat to do? bio! molly leong gave back the papers.. omg la.. lucky i nv take.. the qns are lyk damn cheem? i was lyk HUH? erps.. then chem.. had really bad headaches =/ so aft tryin to listen to wat johnny who is mumbbling abt.. i fell aslp.. head was so pain ok..

recess had night games comm meeting!! xDD! <33 the pple inside!! nicenice ones!! ha.. anws.. yup.. hopefully everything runs well.. erps.. quite excited.. but i think everything is very rush la. i don lyk to be rushed.. or hurried.. =/ so packed tt i feel lyk dieing. we went frm family lounge to canteen abit jessling hit my head -.- made me feel worse.. so when i head back to class.. i was dieing. badbadbad headaches.. really cannot make it.. so asked panadols frm everywhere.. thanks all tt gave me!! i ate 2 though.. erps.. then i slam dead.. I FAILED MY EL LA! =( i don wanna retain!! damn scared.. no!!!!! i really don wanna retain.. argh. shoots. sux la.. maths! oh.. the only gd thing of the day.. i passed.. lyk finally? gosh.. THANKS ALL THOSE WHO TAUGHT ME SO EVER PATIENTLY!! <33 esp beckie.. hehe..

anws. aft sch. lunch with michelle and blanche! erps! anws. maths remedial was lyk
-.-||| apparently i wasnt doin? tryin to pack my stuffs.. then rush to piano lessons.. oh wells.. damn tiring.. really so tiring.. i played non stop for more than 30 mins of the same phrase ok! same short phrase which i juz cant catch it.. yyy?? how i wish im lyk agnes =/ so gd at playing.. and all other things.. ARGH! hate myself..sucks..

haiz.. there wont be band prac for the entire wk.. i dunno to be happy or sad? seems lyk everyones cheery abt it.. oh wells.. poor jazzie..

2007-05-12T23:39:00.000+08:00

yesterday was JUBILATE IV and it was GREAT!! xDDD ok. so morning had drills.. was fine.. i commanded funnily.. but who cares~ went back to class. erps. cam whore in class with eileen!! then discussed with lijie and faith of how to buy the flowers. =( anws. bad things happened. then recess we rushed out to buy and stuff.. erps. was damn dumb. cabbed down to thomson and back for nth! argh. but still.. bought our flowers. then rush back class and start getting out all the torns! wth la.. i pluck with my fingers and they started bleeding =/ oh wells.. still got all the torns out. so GD! then went down to band room.. busy giving out flowers and setting up.. etcetc.. then off we go to UCC!! on the bus we started taking pictures xDD niceyyyyy.. then dropped at UCC after the topid uncle turning rounds and rounds la.. haiz yoyo.. anws. YA! so we started tuning.. then it was our turn to practise. WTH LA! THE DUMBASS CO COULD PLAY 2 FULL SONGS YET BAND CANT!! its juz 1 song and we got cut off nt even half? wonderful.. grr.. but tt didnt spoil my day. phew~ ha. then when we go back we started taking pictures again!! NICE ONES OK!! while waiting we did lots of stuffs! we took section photo!!! WOOTS! all of us look sweeeet! <33 HA! then finale pple went so we started slacking arnd. discussing pop! then a small grp of us started playing tgt!! then slowly more pple and more pple joined! the finale pple came back and they joined too!! then in the end the whole band played!! awwww!!!!! its really soo touching and heartwarming.. its lyk from a small grp to bigbigbig grp!! xDDD tt made my day!! <33 the solos played even the percs sang! <33 tian ahh!!! so happy!! the most bonded thing the band did tgt ok!! erps.. but in the end.. the dumbass AUNTIE came right infront of me and scolded me.. ok.. lyk wth? ME! she looked right into my eyes ok.. topid AUNTIE.. she started sayin and sayin.. blabbering all the stuffs.. but i juz huh? and nodnodnod sorry sorry.. grr.. anws.. then we went to the holding room! dance studio! wa! cool! xDD!!! WE TOOK SQUAD AND BAND PHOTOS!! AWWW!! <33 tt made my day too!! so sweeeeet! ha! was really a great day ok! =DD

so anws.. after much pictures.. we had to go down for jubilate!! yup! so we were quite tensed? abit? CUZ ITS THE LAST PERFORMANCE FOR THE REDS =( and we had to prove tt we are NO SILVER BAND! hope we did.. but anws.. ya! was really sad.. cuz its the last time we can really spend with the reds arh.. shoots.. so i started hugging.. =/ was sad ok.. and we had section hug! grp hug! woots! so anws.. aft much waitings.. ITS OUR TURN!! erps! was fine for me i guess.. but ha.. i moved quite alot arh~ opps.. but was fine.. juz tt instru abit stucked.. and last page was kinda out.. oh wells.. at least we nv really screw it up! so ya! went back to the holding room.. and thanks to jessling i started crying.. sad.. =/ hugged them.. aw.. shoots.. sian.. anws.. ya.. took our stuffs. and went back to sch.. haiz yo.. tt zhangdi arh!! aiyoyo.. nvm.. lols.. anws.. on the bus!! STARTED TAKING PICTURES AGAIN! =DD hahaha.. ok.. our section is much more bonded.. ya.. so anws.. dear ruijun cried lyk mad?? erps.. duno wat happen.. so ya.. half our way back is to console her.. x_x anws. so we went back packed etcetc.. then had supper with cassandra at mos.. yup! tok and we were sad tgt.. =( oh wells. then we ate and left.. off back home.. was really tired.. and really sad.. so thinking abt stuffs. and i dropped off the bloody bus without my wallet. so ya. i lost my wallet =/ argh.. dumb right? haiz.. so once i rch home put down stuffs and had to go to amk hub and tell the person.. to look out for my wallet lyk give a report or wat shit la.. erps.. so tt was the sad part.. cuz when i get home my parents started scolding lyk shit.. oh wells.. i had my sis ORANGE DAISIES to cheer me up.. ha! and all the other flowers!! THANKS ALL!! <33 YOU ALL!! HA!

today had section outing! we rock! xDD but jiaying nv come.. erps.. theres alwaes another time =/ oh wells.. anws.. we went to check price for our shirt! WOOTS! its kinda ex.. so cut colours etc lo.. yupyup.. lunch at pepper lunch. ha. nt bad. then jacq left.. the rest of us juz kept walking rounds in amk hub.. erps. >.< abit.. anws. ya. then we split and went walking and talking with jessling. then went church. erps. was pianist. =( but lucky liangwen and zhiren came!! yay! so i played 2 songs only.. and abit of the other 2 phew~ xDD josh was nice to teach me!! hehe.. so ya.. then at our small grp.. err. i dozed off =/ was tired.. erps. anws. so aft all.. dinner with dad only! first time in the year. i ate with dad at saturday night alone! yup! then went for chimes/choir. erps. today voice kinda sore? hoarsy. dunno how to sae.. cant sing properly.. n had to rch some high note! wth? lols. was fun though. haha.. ya. then went off to find sis at amk hub with her frens -.- all older than me can!! ya. went newyorknewyork for their drinks and HOME!

things will not be the same anymore

2007-05-09T23:04:00.000+08:00

days are bad. currently down with gastric flu.. =/ oh wells.. many pple fell ill.. everyday pple will leave early.. i left home early on monday though. erps. so band yesterday was fine.. abit gan chiong. thought tt miss sia will combine us la.. abit she nv? haiz.. okies then.. time flies lyk wth.. tmr will be watching phantom of the opera! friday gonna be jubilate! ohgosh.. and nxt fri will be noms and the wk aft is pop! wth la.. =( i haven plan out anything yet.. haiz.. esp the prezzies.. erps.. sians..

anws.. shall tok abt today.. bad bad bad day.. morning had drills.. err.. was quite funny. ha! lijie and cassandra command! =D anws. then had morning jog. walked one rnd and chiong to toilet. lols. anws.. aft tt was maths. sux-ed struggled to keep myself awake.. =/ then was cl.. fine i guess.. zhuang chased pple out again.. cuz they nv do work.. yesterday nv attend her lessons.. so apparently nv get the wksheet.. haiz.. so nv get to be kicked out.. sobs.. then lit test! wth.. damn scary?? many things happened la.. nt very plesant to say wat here.. but anws.. i screwed it. then was recess.. oo.. fried food day! evil day. ha. anws. went band room with lijie.. regina new jessling was there too.. cassandra and carina were outside though.. erps. so yup.. then was boring aft recess.. haiz.. snorts.. aft sch attended the maths remedial. ok.. miss quek give up on me. =( she don even wanna teach me la! she juz scolded me n sae gogo. ohwells.. so i went to becks for help.. was dieing la.. really dunno how to do.. lucky becks helped!! THANKS BECKS!! her maths damn pro.. and shes damn patient.. hahah.. apparently she wasnt dead aft teaching me.. phew~ so ya.. aft tt.. she left!! no one to teach me =( but nt long aft shan and karen came! so they helped.. hah.. THX!! but err.. i was damn stressed out la.. really dunno how to do. =( diediedie.. tmr fail le.. anws. went macs to study aft tt.. aww.. tmr is maths test. and im so gonna fail it..Ahhhhh... jiu ming ah!!! i don dare to face my ppr this term.. >:( every thing is so wrong.. so very wrong..

2007-05-06T22:34:00.000+08:00

erps.. today woke up a lil late? lyk 8.. tsk. so tired la.. haiz.. anws.. today feel weird.. i thought its a holiday or smth? guess its cuz of my dream last night. ha. anws.. im the pianist today at the kiddo section =DD haha.. they damn cute la!! jasmine accompanied me too!! lols.. then went for lessons aft tt.. erps.. seriously.. im damn random la.. hahaha.. and partly cuz of me.. we backtrack quite alot? hahaha.. =D so aft lessons went opp.. accompanied jasmine for her injection!! HA!! someone's going to china and abandoning me =( oh wells.. the trip is impt to her anws.. haiz.. so agnes timothy jethro xiaojun and me juz sat outside the clinic waiting for her jab.. lol! the queue was long! so we waited super long.. and in the end was late for service. oh wells..

so anws.. aft service went amk hub with sis and her bf. =/ dian deng pao me.. lols.. but he treat me to some snacks! xD but err.. they damn childish when they are tgt.. argh.. cant stand it.. haiz.. anws.. then we went back home.. sis cooked for lunch while i slp.. throat hurt badly =( haiz.. dunno wats with me la.. oh wells.. then lunch was nice! ha.. then aft helping sis with laundry then went down to rollar blade! hoho! was fun! and i managed nt falling down!! xDD it hav been quite long since i roller blade huh.. anws.. aft all.. went back home and the whole family went to KK hospital to visit a church mate! yup! she's really recovering well. thank God. she dropped frm 5 floors though.. its a miracle tt shes alive! yup! so we went there and sang some songs ya.. then off we go to jack's place for dinner! with church pple.. yupyup! i ate steak ^^ haha.. and brownies for desserts.. awww.... hehehe.. I <33 BROWNIES!! WOOTS!! esp when its hot and with ice cream.. hahahaha.. but..... its brownies aint tt gd.. erps.. anws.. played with jerome.. omgosh la.. his damn violent!! anyhow hit lehh!! x_x hav to be careful man!! block as much as i can.. erps.. but he seems to alwaes hit the wrong place =/ in the end ha.. jean told him to hit my blubber.. yup. so he started hitting my tummy real hard.. currently havin tummy aches.. erps. oh wells.. no matter wat will get hurt while playing.. lol..

anws.. jasmine will be flying to china on saturday =/ oh wells.. will miss her!! 3 weeks leh.. erps.. only left agnes! haiz. dumb blanche not coming sch tmr! =( oh wells.. haiz.. super sians can.. argh.. and tmr gonna take back my chem test tt i seriously failed!! HOW?? i juz gonna get 0 oh man.. its gonna be a real bad day tmr..

i regret for the things i have done and have not done

2007-05-06T00:08:00.000+08:00

erps! im back. ha. bloggin mood. haiz.. my throat is feeling abit weird la.. lyk swollen? or smth.. ohwells.. anws.. went ikea with cassandra.. bus rides are uncomfortable.. erps.. supposed to buy POP presents.. in the end juz bought some. lol. so planned wat to buy first.. bought stuffs then had snack.. then ya.. left.. erps.. anws.. haiz.. really hav to save up nw.. its lyk dammit~!! gosh.. time flies lyk so fast? its abt 2 wks to POP. =/

oh dear.. anws.. so cassandra went back first.. then i make my way to the bus stop.. when i rch there.. i rmbed tt i hav no more money in my card.. lol.. and moreover i hav no coin. lol. so i make my way back to ikea!! so embarrassing la.. abit.. then i went to buy a octopus.. lol!! and make my way back to the bus stop.. rched j8 quite fast la! then took train to amk. erps! some stuffs happened. and i got damn shocked!! so i chiong out of the train and rush to the bus stop and rched church.. haha. oh! today we sang.. lols. instead of chimes. err.. i cant get the schedule right.. anws.. ha! as usual me and jasmine went mad.. lol.. was nt bad bahh.. so aft singing. we were suppose to play games? but in the end everyone split up and did their stuffs? so jasmine and me sat down and tok.. ha. but in the end we played monkey with the volley ball. HA! im a gd 'monkey' =DD yupyup!

so anws. back to scanning photos and lookin at photos.. and OMG!!!!!! I LOOK SUPER FAT DURING MY PRIMARY SCH DAYS!! super fat!! lyk swell or wat?? =((( super sad can!! really damn fat.. dammit.. haiz........

ohya! before i forget.. omgosh la.. mr cher got hand foot mouth disease!! poor thing! so old get such young disease! so do pray for him.. although i don really lyk him.. but still.. hope he get well soon..

2007-05-05T14:46:00.000+08:00

erps.. lol.. lookin at childhood pics. oh gosh. damn embarrassing.. one of it was when i was nude =/ oh wells.. ha. super funny for some.. anws.. yesterday was fine.thurs slept at 3 and woke up at 6 ok! so was damn tired on fri =/ went sch early as usual.. haiz.. sch was tiring. juz kept slpin durin lessons. recess was with lijie cassandra and carina! was fun! in the band room. erps. <33 anws.. aft sch had NAPHA!! 5 items! OMG! im bloody pissed with myself.. i need 4 less seconds to get A for 2.4 =/ oh wells.. 5 items got As yay! but haiz.. nth much anws.. aft napha went arnd.. went band room wanted to give zd her prezzie? err.. apparently nv see her. anws. so went to class rot. then went to meet marietta and back to class and rot. then we went out to buy food for midsummer nights! =D yupyup! tibits! cup noodles for dinner.. then went to jean's hse! her dad fetched us there. was abit late though. ha.. k. we left sch at 6.28 how to nt be late? lol! anws. midsummer was nt bad.. but was too tired to really enjoy the whole thing and a bug sting me! argh. anws. so it ended abt 10+ 11? ya.. then walked back to ps with marietta valery jean! <33 them man. they damn cute la.. lol!! we were at some grassy place. and they juz kept screamin! lol.. er.. then i juz walked all the way laughin my head off.. ha.. 'bimbos'~ hahaha.. anws..so we were kinda lost? cant find our way back askin pple for help etc.. haha. funny.. but tiring. then finally made our way to ps! took train back with marietta.. =D had a nice tok with her.. haha..

anws. rch home at 12+ la. damn tired. was half dead. lol! yupyup! so was nt a bad day overall.. hmm.. today woke up at 7 finding everyone still aslp. did hws till 8 and went back to slp! haha.. woke up at 12 and find everyone gone =/ lol.. anws.. still scanning photos and found super hilarious pple in the photos.. =D

lol!! didnt noe tt when i was young i was so slpy =/ poor me! haha

2007-05-03T20:41:00.000+08:00

erps.. i dunno how to say. seriously think that april and may is just so not my month? tsk.. days are really bad i guess.. haiz.. anws. tues went out!! WOOTS!! suppose to be the whole clique can! >: ( but MAG SHAN ANNICE MICHELLE DID NOT COME!!!! hmph! ok. so in the end only yong and marietta turned up. erps. but JESSIE STILL LOVE ALL OF YOU! =D

hmm..so we met at vivo! HA! i am the first as usual! gd job keeping on the record~ woots~ anws.. so we went walking arnd la.. got abit sian.. then we went to eat! dimsum. either yong or marietta sae smth lyk da bao to the auntie cuz we wanted take away then the auntie thought we wan da bao(big bun) HAHA! hilarious. so the auntie was damn embarrassed ^^. lol. ya. we went to green grass to sit! and toked! haiz. long time nv sit and tok le.. hmm.. i cant help it but say tt.. pple do change.. many pple changed =( and i seriously don lyk it.. argh.. ok.. anws. then aft dimsum.. we juz walk arnd pigging here and there. pig of the day was yong cuz she kept buyin n buyin food la. tsk! topid girl.. anws.. went candy empire bought chocs! =D then went tangs bought rubber tortise! HA! ITS ORANGE!<33!! tts y i bought it. lol. then left early for tuition back at home. yup. aft tt went dinner at sheng ji! GD FOOD MAN!! =D then courts! wanted to get my mp3. in the end sis got hers =( and i nv got mine. haiz. but parents bought a new cam though! quite a gd one. but err... its too cheem for me to understand. so. guess im nt gonna use it~ yup!

wed! hmm.. morning jog was bleh. we juz cheated our way through. everythin was fine i guess.. but as usual.. the day was cloudy =( had free period! lit teacher didnt come! WOOTS!! =D SS was sucky? so is el? =/ then had maths remedial.. really cant do it la.. so er.. was kinda lyk giving up? so i was sitting at the railings thingy. tokin on the phone. n lijie they all thought i wanted to jump. -.- right.. lyk i got the guts to. erps. anws. so ha! the weakling cried yet again. lame. then aft maths remedial met valery. and ate lunch. then went j8 to meet cassandra jessling carina. to buy prezzies..yups. was super pissed with myself. argh. anws. then went home.. nth much. ate lots of porridge. was super sian. then started doin my dued SS graded. n then study for maths test. sux la. slept damn late =( and i did nt manage to complete SS graded can! ARGH!! PISSED!!

today! wa. damn tired! and err.. fell sick =( was sneezing my way to sch.. but aft tt was fine. then started ls-ing and running nose. -.- weird. tsk! so maths test early in the morning first lesson. how great. argh. totally flunk it can? my mind juz went blank. lyk *poof* argh! seriously. im gonna fail every single thing this term! AHHH!!! chem gonna get 0 maths gonna get 0 OMG! =( oh wells. i hate sch. i hate studies. argh. then was cl! wa lao eh. topid zhuang pick on me again! stomach DAMMIT PAIN LA! needed to lao sai! THANKS TO HER STUPID SHIT FACE! then i was lyk wo ke yi qu ce suo ma? THEN SHE GLARED AT ME! HELLO?? I ONLY WAN TO SHIT! WATS UR PROB?? -.- argh. sickening old cunning witch. ok. tt was quite bad. =/ oh wells.. then was pe! ha! jumpjumpjump stretchstretchstretch then we did frisbee! so fun and cute! haha!partner blanche.. err.. i think im a lousy thrower but good catcher and blanche is the other way round. ahaha! eeks. recess had squad meetin. hmm. ya. then ate with cassandra lijie carina. yup! and it rained. i hate rain.. then was el! I FREAKING FORGOT ALL ABT THE WORD OF THE DAY! and nxt mon i need to give 3 =( haiz.. tts life i guess. chem was short. assemble heard debate FREAKING PISSED WITH SETH TAN JEEKOK!! HE IS A FREAKIN BAISED TEACHER I TELL YOU!! ARGH!! wats his prob? me and blanche were tokin. then he keep pickin on us. abit the whole class havoc can? then he keep saein esp blanche pointing his finer strictly with his snob face at her. then i was lyk NO is me tt alwaes tok. then he keep esp blanche esp blanche! WA LAO!! SIAO AH?? so baised la!! then chris qimin dawn furr becks caralyn tokin and PLAYING! HE DID NT EVEN BOTHER! wth. but in the end chris had to sit nxt to him! unfair freak. anws. debate was fine. but was too pissed with him le. so we didnt bother much. then it was band. erps.

band was err. rush? helped percs to set up. then rush back to take conductor stuffs. then rush back to put stuffs then rush back to music rm for combine. and i was sharp =/ sweating lyk a idiot. oh wells. but tuned aft tt. miss sia was ok. i duno? weird. haiz. we are playin stupid merry widow. argh. yyy? no choice huh.. haiz. then sectionals did conducting and practising song. lol. my fats keep wobbling la! ha!! xD poor fats of mine.. haha. jessling was funny when she conduct. and whenever i see jiaying's face while conducting i will end up laughing. so in the end i juz kept lookin at the score without eye contact. =( oh wells.. aft tt was fine.

guess days will just be like that. as 'tensed' as tiring as irritating as boring. today was supposed to be thunder storm for me. guess its just really cloudy =( as worried.. many people tell me that im thinking too much. i tried to sit down and think. but i end up getting cocked up by thoughts and fell aslp =/ oh wells.. shall be forever cloaked/cocked up then. cant even spell a simple word.

2007-04-30T22:54:00.000+08:00

its MAG BIRTHDAY!! <33 yupyup! in the morning went to find marietta for her prezzie and cakie! then yup! went back to class.. helped cassandra with some stuffs lol! was damn fun ponning seth tan's 'sexual' class ok! so anws. me and lijie went to toilet nearest to our class and apparently got chased out by the auntie then ended up running lyk mad to the quite far toilet! hahaha!! was soo fun la! ok.. anws. was tokin to cassandra on the phone cuz apparently she NEVER COME SCH!! =( lol.

oh ya! i finally know wats the meaning of tsk! HAHAHA! damn dumb. so im gonna say erps! HAHAHA! ok. seriously spastic this time =/ erps! ok. anws. today is full of ups and downs. morning was fun ponning class. and then cl was super low cuz i was tryin to keep my eyes open.. erps! blanche had a hard time waking me up! cuz i keep dozing off.. =( aww.. haiz.. anws.. bio sux! molly's temper is overpowering her. erps! anws. i still payed attention ok! or didnt i? err.. nvm. heck. CHEM! johnny who? tsk!#&@^%# scolded us again! ok.. we were noisy la.. but i got listen ok! cant he juz listen to us tok? -.- we tok abitbit plus a lil more volume.. erps.. ok.. =/

anws.. didnt go for squad meet cuz WE CELEBRATED DEAR MAG's 15th BIRTHDAY!! SO SWEET OK!! i was the one lighting up matches!! burnt my finger and got choked by smoke! but was fun! then we sang loudly for mag ok! JESSIE <33 MAG!! ha! the best thing is the whole clique was back! JESSIE ANNICE MARIETTA MAG MICHELLE EESHAN YONGMEI!! JAMMMEY! HAHA! but apparently some idiot went for her dear duty.. tsk~! but we ate the nicenice choco cake!! ha.. was nice but fattening =/ evil cake! was really happy to see the clique back again. reminds me of the nice times last yr! how free we were ok.. aww.. but now its lyk so split up? =( to ammmey: J LOVES ALL OF YOU! will miss you all soooo muchy! erps. cant wait for tmr. but don even noe if im goin!

so it was one of the peak of the whole day! aft recess.. my phone was dieing =( but heck! survived through el lessons alright! did my hw! and was super proud of myself! and i passed the dumbass compre and got praised by mr a.wong! so was happy! but aft tt had free time.. he let us off! so me and blanche and michelle went to mpr toilet. erps! far one.. anws. then it was maths =( was low for awhile.. but dumb blanche show me a super hilarious picture la! cant describe how funny it was but it was lyk xD lol! then she started teaching me all the jap/korean! hahaha! then we juz keep playin and act lyk korean/jap DAMN FUNNY LA!! <333 then we went for lunch! AHHA! was super hilarious!! laughin lyk mad.. until blanche felt her taopok got dangeling at her diaphram which is totally impossible HA! anws. yup! then went arnd collecting $$ HA! erps! laughin our way.. then maths remedial! managed to copy some hws.. then played! topid blanche go library. haiz. hav to accompany her there. =/ then we left.. and she went home not long aft!! leaving me all alone =( was super sad ok! cuz i was super duper bored lyk shit can! x_x

ended up in the balcony thinking abt stuffs.. but juz cant set my mind right la. i really cant.. end up being dumb. ok. at 6 left sch with debra cuz she was in class! i felt so lost all along due to my dead phone! waited for dad for damn long and ended up dozing off in his office! then we went shengsong and bought all my snacks(survivor kit) for classes. then off home.. ARGH. got lectured yet again!

at night aft dinner and stuffs. JUZ BEFORE I BATHED. bloody hell got scolded. etc. AGAIN! =x argh. so err.. when i bath i juz kept swearing and screaming and shoutin! erps.. i think was a lil over board. WHO CARES? -.- im so gonna prove to you tt im gonna get into a jc and then a university IN singapore! just you wait! ARGH.

tmr i wanna go out la.. but apparently i cant? wth! its mag's birthday for goodness sake! ARGH! yyy? oh gosh.. im so pissed.. seriously pissed.. =/ life is so weird? I HATE LIFE!!!!!! PLEASE END IT SOON!! PLEASE!!

word of the day: dead

2007-04-30T01:07:00.000+08:00

THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO MAG!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!! <33 hmm.. know that now the clique kinda like split or smth? but its ok! cant wait for tues when we all get together for you ya? <33 hmm.. its your day today! so don be sad no more! CHEER UP and smile always! LOVE YA LOTTS!! ENJOY YOUR 15th BIRTHDAY!! to come and think of it.. its kinda long huh? ha! your old~ lol. oh ya.. tsk.. your not fat okay? if you wanna go on diet i can go with you <33 I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU DEAR!! xD

2007-04-29T22:05:00.000+08:00

HA! yesterday was such a gd day tt i somehow got high today! xD credits to cassandra regina lijie carina!! <33 you all! ha!! i cant forget the bombombom-bom-bom-bombombom thingthing! xDDD HAHAHA!! cant wait for camp! tsktsk! yup anws.. today woke up rather late.. was exhausted.. tsk. got the bad feeling tt ahems comin =( anws. so rushed lyk mad to church. cuz i was late. erps. but i was still earlier than stupid jasmine! topid pianist alwaes late n make others think tt i am the pianist. HA! its ok~ nxt wk will be my turn to be pianist! tsk! hope everythin flows well n no wrong notes! xD

yupyup! was fine.. kids cried etc.. haha.. the 2 boys arh.. still quarrel over funny things.. super cutesy la! esp in the lift. xD
boyboy1: #$%^&#%^(weird stuffs)
boyboy2: #$%^&#%^(exact weird stuffs)
boyboy1: NO!
boyboy2: NO!
boyboy1: YES!
boyboy2: YES!

then boyboy1 mum was lyk when they quarrel they damn cute. HA! ok.. anws.. err.. class was fine? at first 3 person only la.. lucky jacky came. lol. yup! was stonin abit.. as usual.. better than falling aslp ok! yup! then went opp for air.. then left to service! oh gosh. was darn bored can! so we started cam whoring err.. was super funny! and took weird videos? but to compare today and yesterday, yesterday was much interesting! xD

ok.. anws. aft service went to take free lunch! HAHA! omgosh. stupid jasmine aka aunty! hahaha.. when her bro says there is free lunch she was lyk WHERE?WHERE? tsk. free lunch was provided due to some chang nian da hui which i hav no idea wats tt. so did nt attend! so anws. lunch at hawker. went to guardian for a while to meet jingwen and sae hi! lol. bo liao. saw yanzhu too.. yup! then went back finish my lunch and went out with sis and her bf! eeks. dian deng pao!

er.. went j8 to walkwalk cum buy stuffs. then took train to novena united square to see toys at toys 'r' us! WOOTS!! saw the super duper cute bear! <333 aww.. and the bigbig bear.. tsk! haiz.. nv see the lobster i wanted though =( eeks. so left them and sat on the train.. wasnt feeling high or wat.. so juz sat on the train all the way to sembawang. thinking abt some stuffs.. and sat back to bishan.. finding out tt sitting on train makes me think alot! tsk! somehow.. i thought it was a short but nice experience! yup! anws.. went back home and got freaking scoldings frm mum. argh. spoiled my clear gd day. grr. ARGH. juz so spoiler la. i cant help it but be so bloody pissed off with her. so juz kept myself in the room. stonin and writin dumb notes to myself and think lots but somehow nth worked. so i juz grab my amaths bk and started reading. found out tt i was dozing off juz gave up reading and went to slp. how pig =/ haiz. woke up and it was time for dinner. dinner was somehow familiar..and i found out tt it was the free lunch provided but diff dishes! HAHA! which was much nicer la -.- tsk.. anws. so yup! finished my el compre ok! best accomplished of the day. err. 1 hw done. cl papers left. don intend to touch. tsk. tmr is monday! argh. hope everything turns out fine. tmr is MAGG's BIRTHDAY! WOOTS! <33

seriously. i dunno wats goin on and wats the problem with you. get a life. argh.

2007-04-28T22:15:00.000+08:00

righto! today was great! spent almost the whole day at regina's hse can! =D HAHA! was damn fun! yup! morning rched at 8.47 at j8 and waited for all the qian jin xiao jie to make their way to j8. ha! lijie was nxt then met regina! then carina then LAST WAS CASSANDRA! hahaha! lol.. anws. before carina came.. we went ntuc then bought our ingredients for lunch! CHEESE was one of them xD mozerella! ok.. then went macs n regina and me bought milo! haha. yup. and ate some snacks there~ discussed abt some stuffs toked quite a lot arh~ then carina came and continued. in the end got chased out x_x tsk.. so anws. juz stood somewhere and rant ha! then waited for DAMN LONG! then cassandra came la.. abit -.- lol! ok.. so we met up for... NIGHT GAMES COMM MEETING!! see! all the nice pple.. including grace! but she nv come la.. tsk.. anws. yup! so off we go to regina's hse. lol. she hav lots of siblings. and her bro abit funny la.. lol. yup! we totally pigged can!! eating alot.. tokin alot.. side tracking alot. HA! im the side tracker! xD ok.. then we took funny videos! lijie is damn funny la!! regina and cassandra were hilarious too! i think we juz make a great team of spastic-ness! HAHA!! WE ROCK~ anws.. but on the whole we managed to discussed alot ok! hmm.. yup! hopefully is scary enough bah =( haiz.. lunch was great macoroni with spaghetti sauce and CHEESE! xD hoho! ok.. anws.. carina left early =( then we did the videos.. but was damn hilarious la!! HAHAHA!! ok.. then lijie left.. haiz. left 3 lonely souls.. did some spastic stuffs.. regina super zi lian la! haha! anws.. then became abit emo.. all the discussions.. x_x ya.. then me and cassandra left regina's hse!

off to j8 to ntuc! haha! bought food! SUSHI! xD bought my CHEESE sushi. but no ebiko =( aww.. anws.. then walked arnd ya.. lol. anws.. walked cassandra to bus stop half way and left for church apparently. err. ya? tsk. sux ok. rched there and went back home. cuz dear jasmine not there! my dear girl. how am i suppose to survive there without you huh? -.- anws. cabbed back with sis. and here i am!

many people change. i kinda cant get used to it. its just gets on my nerves. but i don hate anyone. i don hav the right to and i wouldn't anyway. i just think that this period is just so not right. cant wait for it to be over. but when its over. eveyrthings over. =(

i hate myself for that

2007-04-28T00:23:00.000+08:00

right.. shall blog abt days then.. wed: great day.. cant rmb details.. err.. aft sch went for self prac with lijie. enid. jingwen. ya.. faith n steph.wee was there..ok. we are nt suppose to bring non-band pple and so ya.. was fine. played grease.. aww.. n i found out tt my long lost phobia is back yet again.

thurs: was a low day? kinda gd too.. hmm.. had band.. was late. cuz of unforsee circumstances. cant even spell simple words. anws. its very confusin etc. rants are useless nw. no one to rant to. no one understands. had sports day rehearsal. memorised so hard for it. hoping tt i will nt play wrong notes for the nxt day. wonderful. argh. dinner was ugly. quarreled with mum. sux. made her real sad. bad day.

friday aka. today: HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEHP.WEE!! <33 ya. ok. anws. really sad for many many things. so todae supposed to be a great day. wow.. the day started out real sunny! went sch myself. -sense of accomplishment-grins- yup. 1 gd thing. so had xtra lessons. nt very xtra. finally payed attention for chem. cuz apparently im still broading over my'gonna fail my chem' thing. anws. ya. sch started at 10. gd. then maths sux as usual. nv pay attention as usual. wadeva. so frm 1 to 3 was with lijie they all.. tsk. got traumatised by someone early in the morning. steph shld noe who. tsk. ok. anws. did many things lijie totally sot ha! 2 gd things. anws. started raining lyk damn heavily? totally sux? went down for band. went music to wait for us to play. wow. in the end we are nt needed. ok. we were in band rm for very long. took squad pic etc. cool! ok. 3 gd things. but takin squad pic totally rocked. felt <33 haha. weird me. anws. so went back to band room. got pissed off cuz we cant watch the cheer routine. got bloody hell scolded! by freakin teachers. who apparently detest band. fyi we detest them too.-rolls eyes- so wadeva! wats wrong with band huh? we nv do enough things izzit? silver band is it? WTH! IF WE PLAYED TODAY WE CAN SHOW YOU THE GOLD BAND! bloody hell.. seriously boiling with anger for the hell sch. fck. anws. in the end me and lijie managed to see the cheer la.. all of them did a great job!! <33 yupp. 4 gd thing. then rot in the band room with cassandra carina jessling lijie. omg. lijie rock! cuz her mp3 rock! blast the music la. =D 5 gd things! anws. we played lyk mad. ya. we were damn noisy. sorry. but it was real fun! 6 gd things<33 anws. yupp. then the results yellow hse got 1st for cheer! yay! i think its a great birthday prezzie for steph!! haha! 7 gd things. anws. green hse got last lyk for overall? wow. cool man. '05 last '06 first '07 last. wonder wats '08 tsk. yup.

oh ya. nv mentioned. we played barney songs for ruijun in music room!to ruijun:be touched ok!:D ok. 8 gd things. anws. had sctn dinner! hoho!jessie <33 saxes sctn! full of nice pple!! ha! ok. so today jessling look very 'shun yan' ok! so i keep starin at her! ha! she sitting opp me anws. tsk. yupp! hoho! eat until damn full. i think was kinda fun? i think? 9 gd things. tsk.

so waited for jessling.jingwen.zhuer bus. in the end before zhuer bus come parents came. so ran all the way opp. was late. they were freakin pissed. argh. shits. right. wadeva. anws. had some family stuffs. really feel low nw. wth. shits. haiz. i dunno la. sux. life screwed. real screwed this time.

a change of blogsong soon.

2007-04-24T22:20:00.000+08:00

argh! im like super confused!! >:( feel really bad.. i dunno la!! argh.. i need to rant.. seriously! but juz cant! ARGH!! my life is totally screwed! TOTALLY!!! ARGH!

ok. yesterday was hol! so ya. was really glad to hav a day of rest at least. slept till 11 then woke up. then did my maths hw. those tt i owed 9 a and e ms ok.. its alot la.. haiz. freak. shit. then went for piano arnd 3+ due to heavy rain! rched at 4 at did theory etc.. argh finish at 6+ or 7 ok! its lyk late? =( haiz. so was tired. teacher say i really need to prac! i need to memorise my scales before june hols! OMG LA! scales sux. haiz. ok. anws. i cant rmb wat i did for night but i noe it juz sux.

today. morning had the sports day rehearsal ya.. so band played! and got acknowlegded in a way la.. ha. abit happy for tt. but nw. alot of 'political' stuffs goin on.. i hate it lots. really. i juz detest u so badly. ah. i bet everyone knows who are'u'. argh. anws. ya. seriously today is a mess la. bzy finding scores etcetc. rush here and there lyk mad cows? i juz hate tues. juz so not my day. haiz. can juz rmb last wk. >:( ARGH! ah.... its just like a scar.. that will never leave my mind. never ever. haiz. anws. lessons were 'fine' apart from being messed up by myself. i passed my amaths test. =( but seriously its really not gd.. argh. freak la. then bio lessons totally sux. wth! i got caught by molly leong yet again! tokin =( nt lyk others don right!?!?!?! very dao mei leh!! its just ALWAYS me!! second time le!! why me? why? so dumb la. tsk. oh ya. blanche brought her cute little bunny today! its really DAMN CUTE <333 it soo much!! <333 its called cinderella.. errr..... haha.. nvm.. tsk. anws. ya.. had unsw too.. ha! juz colour colour then SLP! i don care le.. i really don.. argh..

aft sch had band.. yaya.. went down early to 'set up' in the end i just run for conductor score and bzy finiding our missing scores only. how wonderful. the tense mood is not there anymore. everything is so relax. really so diff.. i kinda missed the tense mood though. >:( then prac at hockey pitch. argh! i cant wait for sports day to be over. i really hate it alot.. except for the 'fun' la.. hopefully we can be'free' haiz.. anws. drills aft tt.. ha. i got command! wa! sux seriously xD ha! anws. ya. as i said a lot of political stuffs goin on. the person was lyk first? and i said 'f' super loud! tsk! >:( both good and bad. aiya. dunno la. just. salad.

haiz. sux. anws. i dreamt tt i waved to miss quek then miss quek got a shock cuz she saw a huge worm infront of her! then she scream her retarded scream again! =D in the end i woke up laughin to myself.. tsk.. :/ random..

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